I wanted to share some thoughts and express my thankfulness to the LORD.
I was living in sin. Committing adultery with a woman for 3 years. We had planned to marry once the divorce went through. Yes I had warning signs that things could go horribly wrong but I was blinded to them. Our past both had abusive partners but we seemed like a good fit. Even our pre-marriage counseling rated us close to 100%
The day of the life changing experience she told me a cousin was in the hospital due to an accident. I began praying and wasn't expecting her back for a couple of days. She came home that evening accusing me of texting a past partner so I asked to see the messages because I had no idea what she was talking about. She said they were deleted and she was leaving for even longer to think. To which i responded, "Don't come back".
She left and in the night Police came to my door. They had said she reported me for physical abuse and threatening to harm her more. I was shocked and confused. But they said they had enough evidence to arrest me and did so.
I have never in my life been so humiliated.
Having PTSD and Major Depression Disorder this was extremely harmful to me. In the following days I considered taking my life, overwhelmed with self loathing and pain.
She has since then made attempts to contact me and apologize blaming her actions on PTSD.
Now comes the praise.
I have recommitted my life to Christ. I don't care what the courts find because my conscience is clear. Yes I have lost everything but in doing so I have found Jesus. I see the wrongs I have made and am forgiven of them. I have asked for and am receiving physical and spiritual healing.
It is amazing what you have when you don't have anything. God is good as much now as he has always been. And I am thankful he is with me through all of this. I even pray for my ex that she would receive healing and forgiveness.
Anyhoo, thanks for reading along. God bless.
I was living in sin. Committing adultery with a woman for 3 years. We had planned to marry once the divorce went through. Yes I had warning signs that things could go horribly wrong but I was blinded to them. Our past both had abusive partners but we seemed like a good fit. Even our pre-marriage counseling rated us close to 100%
The day of the life changing experience she told me a cousin was in the hospital due to an accident. I began praying and wasn't expecting her back for a couple of days. She came home that evening accusing me of texting a past partner so I asked to see the messages because I had no idea what she was talking about. She said they were deleted and she was leaving for even longer to think. To which i responded, "Don't come back".
She left and in the night Police came to my door. They had said she reported me for physical abuse and threatening to harm her more. I was shocked and confused. But they said they had enough evidence to arrest me and did so.
I have never in my life been so humiliated.
Having PTSD and Major Depression Disorder this was extremely harmful to me. In the following days I considered taking my life, overwhelmed with self loathing and pain.
She has since then made attempts to contact me and apologize blaming her actions on PTSD.
Now comes the praise.
I have recommitted my life to Christ. I don't care what the courts find because my conscience is clear. Yes I have lost everything but in doing so I have found Jesus. I see the wrongs I have made and am forgiven of them. I have asked for and am receiving physical and spiritual healing.
It is amazing what you have when you don't have anything. God is good as much now as he has always been. And I am thankful he is with me through all of this. I even pray for my ex that she would receive healing and forgiveness.
Anyhoo, thanks for reading along. God bless.
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