Your position on denominations is fully understandable, for now I am there too. This does not mean any less praying, studying or growing, just doing it a bit differently. This is in part due to difficult past experiences with the Constantinian church, and in part due to life circumstances. It is difficult to either embrace or reject the organized church. The spiritual church is another matter.
I'm not a spring chicken, but the Messiah sits very easily on my shoulder right now. As I grow the Ruach HeKodesh becomes more and more central to my life. Maybe this is from study and search, maybe because life has broken through the deafness of dull ears and I listen more. Either way, this is a grand experience.