Why is it hard to have faith?

Hi there everyone! I've been going through a hard time and through this process I've been trying to get close to God. I'm closing in on month 2 of suffering with the symptoms that have been bothering me since I had a surgery in April. I don't see any improvement on my health. Some days I feel like God will answer my prayers and he will heal me. Other days I feel like he won't and something tells me to just end my life. It's been very hard to become a strong person because I'm a very weak person. Sometimes I can catch God talking to me through people sometimes and it feels like everything is going to be okay. I don't know what to think anymore. Please pray for me.

Faith is a gift from the Father.

Just keeping it somewhere hidden is not enough; we must exercise our faith regularly.

We do this by doing works given us by the Father.

No, this does not intend to say that we all must do the great works our Lord did, nor that of the Prphets or Apostles.

The gift of faith comes with built-in works which we all may do. The very first one is prayer and rpaise of our Maker. T^here are many after this ending u p with simplay waiting for our Lrd. Being kind to strangers in need, and to thse we encounter daily as a good example of belief. After you realize you are already doing works from God, they will come easier, and your faith will grow too, yes, I bgelieve. All love and blessings in Jesus Yeshua...

Im sorry to hear that you have been going through such a rough time, and i pray that it will end soon, or that God will give you the strength to deal with this situation.

But please dont believe that it is because of your lack of faith why you are suffering or that if you had more faith you would be healed. You need to develop a determination that says, i will hang on to God whether or not my circumstances change. Just because things arent going your way that does not mean that God is distant or that He does not hear your prayers.

But why will you end your life, when you dont know what the next day will bring? Having faith will not always get us what we want or when and how we want it, and its important to accept that as a Christian. So perhaps this is the lesson that God is trying to teach you right now.

2 Corinthians 12:8-10
New International Version
8 Three times I pleaded with the Lord to take it away from me. 9 But he said to me, “My grace is sufficient for you, for my power is made perfect in weakness.” Therefore I will boast all the more gladly about my weaknesses, so that Christ’s power may rest on me. 10 That is why, for Christ’s sake, I delight in weaknesses, in insults, in hardships, in persecutions, in difficulties. For when I am weak, then I am strong.

The something that speaks to you wanting you to take your life is of Satan remember that is not the characteristics of God.

Stay hopeful and try to find even the smallest of things to have joy in, to be thankful for.

Praying.

I think following Jesus is so hard because our spirit has to be changed from what it is to what it needs to be.

And all change requires external forces to work upon the thing being changed.

And so, for instance, if we are proud, then for our own benefit we need to be humbled, and that is going to mean having failures, or being confronted with our own limitations, or coming to terms with the reality of our own helplessness.
And all of this can hurt, and our 'self' might rage up against these things. But at the end of the day they are simply the reality that we still haven't digested yet, and until we do then we are stuck at a point of change, and the craftsman may well have to take out a bigger hammer and try again!

Long story short, today I lost my temper at a restaurant where my daughter and I had been waiting for our food for 30 minutes but several customers who arrived after us already had their food - the same food we had ordered. Then, later when I finally got a quiet moment to have a row with God, I said to Him "if only our food had come after 25 minutes everything would have been fine." and straight away I felt Him saying "and what would you have learned from that?"

My brother was a devoted Christian who was born again about 7 years before me. He died of a massive brain-hemorrhage at 49 years old. I am 52 now and I look forward to the day I finally get out of this world. I have often thought I would like to bring my time here to an end, but the truth is it will end on its own soon enough - "vapor of mist" that it is. So, until God pulls the plug I'll try to keep on struggling through the bad days, and I'll try to be kind to a few people along the way who need a little kindness.

I wrote this because I want you to know that I empathize with you, and I care, and I will pray that God send some joy your way.

Take care my friend.

That's a common symptom of your depression. It creates a moodiness. I struggle with the same moodiness.
It seems an exaggerated form of normal human behavior. Think about it, grief has 5 stages to it that most people go through. Being depressed is a bit like being in a constant state of grief.

Also, faith is difficult in and of itself. It's often times "I have zero evidence but I still believe it true". That's its own challenge right there.

Just take things one day at a time. Don't stress yourself out putting pressure on yourself, but rather use each day as a lesson to grow just a bit.

Faith and prayer...

Both are invisible...

But they make impossible things happen.