Help finding fellowship of likeminded christians facing similar mental health and trauma.issues

Hi I am an almost 40 year old lady, single, physically disabled and also battling serious issues with BPD, OC D and complex PTS D. A lot of my trauma.is linked to childhood abuse and r religious abuse as a child and adult . I am in therapy the progress has been slow and I am in a liberal and v inclusive church

I have been involved in Word of faith, Hebrew roots, evangelica lism, pentecostalism and had some v damaging experiences there so am in process of deconstructing from legalism and the idea of God being a fire and brimstone type, seeking a much gentler path of faith

I do have a couple really good friend sin my church but struggle.to open up to them?. Fear of being too needy or being rejected by them? F

I don't know what am looking for exactly except maybe someone to say "i see you. You're not alone"?

sorry if this doesn't make sense. I don't put myself across v well. would love to be an articulate person who writes well but am not there yet!

You are in a good place for support. You are never alone. I have seen up close the aftermath of kids coming out of trauma homes. I can only relate as a guardian figure trying to help them heal. I struggle with anxiety that has often led to panic attacks and periods of depression. Mental disorders or mental illnesses are the number one problem our generations are struggling with. You are far from being alone. As family units are destroyed by culture, government, education, or sin. We see more adults with past trauma.

Open up to friends. True friends will love you more. Faith and Biblical guidance can help you move out of the false teachings of the past. Give it all to God and let the Bible be your only source until it is your foundation. Once as a foundation, you can begin to test the lies, false teachings, or new enlightenments atop this foundation for structural integrity.

My anxiety journey made me do this very thing and in sooo many ways set me free from the grip it had on me. It took years to deprogram but now after been tried by fire I can confidently know what is true.

In truth, we gain the power to be the type of Christians that the powers of evil tremble in our presence.

John 8:32
New International Version
32 Then you will know the truth, and the truth will set you free.”

Let the truth set you free! Amen.

Sounds like maybe you're looking for a support group for people with similar issues. Would some sort of group therapy for one of your conditions be a possibility?

well God saw Hagar when she was in the desert, shed been abandoned by her mistress and master, who had knocked her up because her mistress Sarah claimed God promised her a child, but it wasnt happening so she convinced her husband Abraham to use her Egyptian maid as a surrogate.

Hagar had the child but then when Sarah DID fall pregnant, Hagars own child Ishmael became a threat to Sarahs child Isaac so she turned them both out of the house. With nothing except bread and a bottle of water

sorry its just God saw Hagar that she wasnt alone and He wasnt going to let Ishmael die.

Actually, your OP post was well articulated. If your friends perceptions are that you are too needy and reject you then I would have to say that they were only fair weather friends to start with and with issues of their own. I will pray that God provides you with at least one very good friend that you can relate to and that will help aid your recovery.

God certainly provided for Hagar and Ishmael.