Thanks for your replies. I previously have heard a lot of voices, this one specifically, that was condemning and painful like this one. I haven't been able to enjoy my fast. I still have 9 days before my 21 day fast ends. To extend it even further is a big risk. And using my track record for hearing the voice of God on this issue, a lot of the times, it's me.
Hello, and welcome to CC.
I was wondering, do you have fellow Christians, pastors, and/or elders whom you can talk to about your fasts and who will pray with you to seek confirmation?
I know we must obey God over men, but there are still some important situations that need to be considered. Have you also talked to your doctor or medical provider about how and how long you are able to fast? For instance, certain medical conditions and medications might limit the type and length of fasts for some people.
I had a friend who was a newer Christian, about 2 years in, who said that God was leading him to fast. Every time he sat down to eat, he said that "God" was telling him not to eat and to keep going. He lost over 30 pounds in a month, and still insisted that "God" was wanting him to go on even longer and stricter fasts. (He really wanted to do a 40-day fast as Jesus had in the Bible.)
I kept pleading with him to talk to one of his church elders or pastors, but he said he didn't want to disobey the Lord. It also turned out that he had a history in his life of authority figures being harsh and demanding, and this is how he saw God. When I asked him what the "voice" sounded like during his fasts, he said he once went to a restaurant, but a "voice" told him, "No, you're not going to eat today," and so he got up and left.
Eventually, he did talk to a church elder, but even then, he was hesitant, and deathly afraid that he would be disobeying God and therefore, punished. It took a long time for him to realize that this was not God and that he had to learn to ignore the voice of his own self-condemnation.
I had a time in my own life in which I went through a fast and, after believing it had brought a great amount of spiritual clarity to my life, started going on almost continuous fasts. We all know that fasting is hard, so I would try to make up rules for myself in order to try to stay on track: "I can't eat until X time of the day, and nothing afterwards;" "I can't eat this, that or the other when I do;" "I can only have this and not that on certain days."
I would simply pile rules on top of other rules, thinking I was getting closer to God the more stringent I became.
One morning I woke up and my stomach was grumbling sharply, but I thought, "I can't eat until X time -- after all, I'm fasting," and a still, small voice said, "Seoul. You. Are. Starving. Yourself."
I truly believe that this was the voice of the Holy Spirit, because I was not wanting to stop, and I have tried to be more careful about what "fasts" I put myself on ever since.
Now of course, I am all for fasting that is led by the Lord.
But I do think that all too often, and especially without anyone else to talk to about it and help keep us prayerfully in check, we wind up listening to voices other than God that will lead us astray, even when we think we are doing something "spiritual" and "of the Lord."