WARNING, this story is long...very long.
Figured I would “bite the bullet” and share my story. I hope my story can help someone else out going through the same issues I’m going through, or to show people how great God is.
I have asperger syndrome, it’s only mild but it effects me a lot, according to my mom I didn’t speak till I was 5 years old, having to do sign language as communication. School was okay for me, but I always struggle, especially with social interactions because I think and like stuff too much more than normal people, but since I’m mild, I’m still perfectly capable of doing stuff. I thank God that my condition is not “more severe”, but it does feel like sometimes I don’t have a place cause not a lot of people can claim to be mild asperger syndrome, with a love for God, but still like nerd stuff. But anyway I have gotten off track, it was in middle school, in the 6th grade, that I decided that I did not want friends nor to associate myself with my classmates. What happened was that my Social Studies teacher was trying to teach, but since everyone wouldn’t be quiet, we had to sit in silence for awhile. I thought that if there are people that don’t want to learn and just want to socialize, why are they at school? So I took my school life more seriously than my social life, it also doesn’t help when I tried to be social in Elementary school, people weren’t nice. I will always remember, there was a group of girls talking about Animal Crossing on the Nintendo DS, I wanted to join their conversation because I had Animal Crossing on the GameCube, they told me to go away. So anyway school was rough, there was fun stuff but it was just about me getting the good grades and going home. Church during this time was good too, like I went, but stayed with my parents and didn’t do any of the Sunday school stuff because I was really shy and wanted to be left alone.
So then life began to change when my parents divorced, that was in the 8th grade. It was a upsetting experience, I remember in the 9th grade, my brother’s dog escaped and got ran over...died sadly. I guess at that point all of the negative emotions from the divorce exploded out cause I cried and yelled I wanted a gun to end my life. My mom snapped me back to reality saying what would happen if I did kill myself. So then I had to change schools in the 10th grade cause my mom moved in with my now stepdad as they married back in 2012. The whole getting used to having step siblings and step parents was hard cause I wanted nothing to do with any of them. I wouldn’t need admit to people that I had step parents and called my stepdad “that person I know”. I freely tell people now my family situation but back then, it was hard for me to accept reality, that’s probably why I got sucked into the world of anime and the Internet as a whole.
In the 11th grade, I met a older kid in my neighborhood because his family helped my mom when having questions about my brother’s pet leopard gecko. So he showed Fairy Tail to me and gave me a list of shows to check out. At this point, I was familiar with the Internet as I checked Pokebeach for news and even looked at the forums (Never joined them, just looked at what people posted, I now realized how creepy that is, but doing that is what got me into My Little pony...yes I used to be a “Brony/Pegasusister” but stopped watching the show like 5 years ago, watched only up to season 4 because I lost interest) so now with my new knowledge on how to go to “streaming websites”, I watched what I could, then I found MAL (Myanimelist) and joined their forums in September 2014, which it was my first time in the forums and it was fun, however since I was so engrossed into anime, my money went into only anime, so I stopped doing Pokémon TCG in 2015 (I started playing in late 2009, in 8th grade, but with life finances growing, I stopped for a long while, but I knew people into TCG that I could call friends, but never kept up with most of them, only two people I still keep in contact from those days) cause I wasn’t doing well in tournaments plus rotating decks each year upsetted me. So that means most of what kept my time was anime.
-Part 1 of post...it turns out my original post was too long-
Figured I would “bite the bullet” and share my story. I hope my story can help someone else out going through the same issues I’m going through, or to show people how great God is.
I have asperger syndrome, it’s only mild but it effects me a lot, according to my mom I didn’t speak till I was 5 years old, having to do sign language as communication. School was okay for me, but I always struggle, especially with social interactions because I think and like stuff too much more than normal people, but since I’m mild, I’m still perfectly capable of doing stuff. I thank God that my condition is not “more severe”, but it does feel like sometimes I don’t have a place cause not a lot of people can claim to be mild asperger syndrome, with a love for God, but still like nerd stuff. But anyway I have gotten off track, it was in middle school, in the 6th grade, that I decided that I did not want friends nor to associate myself with my classmates. What happened was that my Social Studies teacher was trying to teach, but since everyone wouldn’t be quiet, we had to sit in silence for awhile. I thought that if there are people that don’t want to learn and just want to socialize, why are they at school? So I took my school life more seriously than my social life, it also doesn’t help when I tried to be social in Elementary school, people weren’t nice. I will always remember, there was a group of girls talking about Animal Crossing on the Nintendo DS, I wanted to join their conversation because I had Animal Crossing on the GameCube, they told me to go away. So anyway school was rough, there was fun stuff but it was just about me getting the good grades and going home. Church during this time was good too, like I went, but stayed with my parents and didn’t do any of the Sunday school stuff because I was really shy and wanted to be left alone.
So then life began to change when my parents divorced, that was in the 8th grade. It was a upsetting experience, I remember in the 9th grade, my brother’s dog escaped and got ran over...died sadly. I guess at that point all of the negative emotions from the divorce exploded out cause I cried and yelled I wanted a gun to end my life. My mom snapped me back to reality saying what would happen if I did kill myself. So then I had to change schools in the 10th grade cause my mom moved in with my now stepdad as they married back in 2012. The whole getting used to having step siblings and step parents was hard cause I wanted nothing to do with any of them. I wouldn’t need admit to people that I had step parents and called my stepdad “that person I know”. I freely tell people now my family situation but back then, it was hard for me to accept reality, that’s probably why I got sucked into the world of anime and the Internet as a whole.
In the 11th grade, I met a older kid in my neighborhood because his family helped my mom when having questions about my brother’s pet leopard gecko. So he showed Fairy Tail to me and gave me a list of shows to check out. At this point, I was familiar with the Internet as I checked Pokebeach for news and even looked at the forums (Never joined them, just looked at what people posted, I now realized how creepy that is, but doing that is what got me into My Little pony...yes I used to be a “Brony/Pegasusister” but stopped watching the show like 5 years ago, watched only up to season 4 because I lost interest) so now with my new knowledge on how to go to “streaming websites”, I watched what I could, then I found MAL (Myanimelist) and joined their forums in September 2014, which it was my first time in the forums and it was fun, however since I was so engrossed into anime, my money went into only anime, so I stopped doing Pokémon TCG in 2015 (I started playing in late 2009, in 8th grade, but with life finances growing, I stopped for a long while, but I knew people into TCG that I could call friends, but never kept up with most of them, only two people I still keep in contact from those days) cause I wasn’t doing well in tournaments plus rotating decks each year upsetted me. So that means most of what kept my time was anime.
-Part 1 of post...it turns out my original post was too long-
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