I was not born disabled, but in my 30's I got severe asthma. I got allergy shots, which triggered Rheumatoid Arthritis. I have been disabled since then, although I had a few good years, I can barely walk. RA gave me heart disease, and now I am even more limited. I had a few good years in the middle, but between med failures, the last 5 years have been really bad. At various points I was so bad I could not get out of bed, the pain and swelling was so bad. Now I have so much damage, I doubt I will be active again. One hand is twisted and deformed, I can't play flute or type with 2 hands.
I'm sorry to hear people have mistreated you. I get that from my family. Mostly because I don't look very disabled, they expect me to do what I have always done. Plus, I went to heart rehab, and blew my knee, & my knee has been in agony for 4 months. I need a knee replacement, I can barely walk. With elective surgery not yet happening in Canada, I might have to live in agonizing pain for a year, or maybe forever. But, I know God is sovereign and in control, and I trust that he cares for me, and will take care of me!
"Trust in the Lord with all your heart and lean not to your own understanding;
In all your ways acknowledge him, and He will make your paths straight!" Prov. 3:5-6
The first years I was unmedicated for RA. I got really mad at God, for 2 years. But God told me to read 5 Psalms a day, and after 2 years, I had met so many of God's people who were hurting or suffering. I would advise you to that. As for Leviticus, it is interesting to read from a scholarly viewpoint but it has NOTHING to do with the New Covenant, which is what we have with Jesus. It is a book written to the priests and Levites, about how to carry out the rituals for the Judaic Covenant, which was made to Abraham and his descendants. My advice would be to read a commentary on Leviticus, then tape the book shut and never read it again. Read the whole New Testament over and over.
When I was on good meds, God gave me this passage, which I memorized.
"Not only that, but we rejoice in our sufferings, knowing that suffering produces endurance, 4 and endurance produces character, and character produces hope, 5 and hope does not put us to shame, because God's love has been poured into our hearts through the Holy Spirit who has been given to us." Romans 5:3-5 ESV
It doesn't matter if we get better, what matters is God loves us and sent Jesus to die on the cross for our sins. One thing I really learned after I became deformed and disabled, is that God loves me and he is leading and guiding me as he transforms me into the image of Christ!
"Do not be conformed to this world, but be transformed by the renewal of your mind, that by testing you may discern what is the will of God, what is good and acceptable and perfect." Romans 12:2
What is perfect in this passage? It is related to completing a goal. The goal is to be more like Jesus in our character. More loving, caring, compassionate, merciful, kind and patient. And the Holy Spirit is working on our hearts and minds to make us more like Jesus. It's really a glorious plan, to have God himself come down from heaven, live as a man, then be resurrected.
Please start looking for positive things. I've never worried about my disabilities, because I have a great hope that God is transforming me by his grace and power.
I'm sorry to hear people have mistreated you. I get that from my family. Mostly because I don't look very disabled, they expect me to do what I have always done. Plus, I went to heart rehab, and blew my knee, & my knee has been in agony for 4 months. I need a knee replacement, I can barely walk. With elective surgery not yet happening in Canada, I might have to live in agonizing pain for a year, or maybe forever. But, I know God is sovereign and in control, and I trust that he cares for me, and will take care of me!
"Trust in the Lord with all your heart and lean not to your own understanding;
In all your ways acknowledge him, and He will make your paths straight!" Prov. 3:5-6
The first years I was unmedicated for RA. I got really mad at God, for 2 years. But God told me to read 5 Psalms a day, and after 2 years, I had met so many of God's people who were hurting or suffering. I would advise you to that. As for Leviticus, it is interesting to read from a scholarly viewpoint but it has NOTHING to do with the New Covenant, which is what we have with Jesus. It is a book written to the priests and Levites, about how to carry out the rituals for the Judaic Covenant, which was made to Abraham and his descendants. My advice would be to read a commentary on Leviticus, then tape the book shut and never read it again. Read the whole New Testament over and over.
When I was on good meds, God gave me this passage, which I memorized.
"Not only that, but we rejoice in our sufferings, knowing that suffering produces endurance, 4 and endurance produces character, and character produces hope, 5 and hope does not put us to shame, because God's love has been poured into our hearts through the Holy Spirit who has been given to us." Romans 5:3-5 ESV
It doesn't matter if we get better, what matters is God loves us and sent Jesus to die on the cross for our sins. One thing I really learned after I became deformed and disabled, is that God loves me and he is leading and guiding me as he transforms me into the image of Christ!
"Do not be conformed to this world, but be transformed by the renewal of your mind, that by testing you may discern what is the will of God, what is good and acceptable and perfect." Romans 12:2
What is perfect in this passage? It is related to completing a goal. The goal is to be more like Jesus in our character. More loving, caring, compassionate, merciful, kind and patient. And the Holy Spirit is working on our hearts and minds to make us more like Jesus. It's really a glorious plan, to have God himself come down from heaven, live as a man, then be resurrected.
Please start looking for positive things. I've never worried about my disabilities, because I have a great hope that God is transforming me by his grace and power.
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