Hello Yuki, and warm welcome to Christian Chat👋. I will definitely pray for you. 🙏
Also keep in mind the scriptures in Romans 8:28 And we know that all things work together for good to them that love God, to them who are the called according to his purpose.
Proverbs 3:5 Trust in the LORD with all thine heart; and lean not unto thine own understanding. 3:6 In all thy ways acknowledge him, and he shall direct thy paths.
I would like to emphasize dear sis, that in everything our dependency should be in God. Our own wisdom may get us into danger but let God guide us in everything.