A quick poem inspired by Psalms

I've been suffering from severe guilt and shame over my past. Although I was saved as a child, I had been living a very secular lifestyle ever since high school. I got involved with very broken people and did a lot of things I feel like I can never forgive myself for. Lately, I've been re-reading Psalms and I was deeply moved when he would cry out to the Lord. And God answered: He helped David fight his battles. My favorite chapter is Psalm 18, which is about God's victory over David's enemies. I realize that God is my refuge (even when Satan is tormenting me about my past). God is fighting this spiritual battle alongside me. This poem (or prayer) is inspired by my reading of Psalms. I hope it can encourage anyone who is struggling with their past and is frightened of the future.

"Oh Lord My God
Guard my soul and guide my heart.
Heal the pain of the past
And focus my eyes not on fear of the future.
For nobody knows the future but you,
And what a joyous future awaits
The one who fears the Lord!
I approach you as a weak lamb
Asking for the strength of a lion.

You touch my face with the light of your forgiveness.
You bandage my wounds.
You knight me with a mighty sword.
You dress me in armor of righteousness.
You teach me to fight, how to parry and advance.

I am tormented night and day by the enemy.
But he flees when he hears Your name.
Yes, he trembles before You can unsheathed Your sword!
The sun rises on another victorious day!
For You are fighting alongside me
And You cannot be defeated!

So be still, my heart!
Quiet yourself and find rest in the Lord!
Worry yourself not with the past or the future,
For the God who holds all time holds me in His great hand,
And He will not forsake me.

I seek refuge in my King: my steadfast fortress and safe place."

You say you cannot forgive yourself, well the truth is only
God forgives you. It is up to us to trust He has forgiven us.
Christ crucified is the proof that God forgives us. God will
not kill you, you will be forgiven for all your sin. Jesus came
on this earth not only to save us but telling us we who believe
has eternal life. As well as that, through scripture, He told us
how to live. We need to follow Him always. He knows we are
not perfect. Not even one of us is perfect. Always trust God.
When He says you'll be forgiven He means that and you need
to accept His forgiveness and never carry around the things
you have been forgiven for. Through scripture God wants you
to be happy, always happy as scripture says. Know for certain
He loves you all day every day and is always willing to help
you. He brought you to Jesus so you can live; not to die.

John 10:28 New International Version (NIV)
28 I give them eternal life, and they shall never perish; no one will snatch them out of my hand.

No one can snatch them out of His hand. Which also means that
evil has no power over you because you have surrendered to out
Lord Jesus Christ.

You say you cannot forgive yourself, well the truth is only
God forgives you. It is up to us to trust He has forgiven us.
Christ crucified is the proof that God forgives us. God will
not kill you, you will be forgiven for all your sin. Jesus came
on this earth not only to save us but telling us we who believe
has eternal life. As well as that, through scripture, He told us
how to live. We need to follow Him always. He knows we are
not perfect. Not even one of us is perfect. Always trust God.
When He says you'll be forgiven He means that and you need
to accept His forgiveness and never carry around the things
you have been forgiven for. Through scripture God wants you
to be happy, always happy as scripture says. Know for certain
He loves you all day every day and is always willing to help
you. He brought you to Jesus so you can live; not to die.

John 10:28 New International Version (NIV)
28 I give them eternal life, and they shall never perish; no one will snatch them out of my hand.

No one can snatch them out of His hand. Which also means that
evil has no power over you because you have surrendered to out
Lord Jesus Christ.