Oh Anna how lonely you must be & what despair you must feel! MDD with psychosis is not something I would want anyone to live with. Are you on any medication or do you have anyone to talk with? Find someone you can confide in who won't judge you. If you're still having heaps of problems, I would urge you to go back and see your doctor to have a wee chat, or contact your closest Mental Health professional.
My prayer for you:
Our loving Father, please help Anna in her time of trouble. Help her mind to settle, and give her the courage to confide in someone, or to chat to somebody on here as she feels. Amen.
Let us know how you get on!