Thank you. Yes, I believe that Jesus Christ is my Lord and Savior and I have accepted Him as that. I just struggle so badly and I feel that I just cannot go on at times. I never really had a father or mother figure growing up, so I had to basically learn right from wrong on my own. Unfortunately, I've done more wrong than right. I just hope that Jesus stays with me. Thanks for your encouragement.
That totally is terrible. It isn't like a bottle you can walk away from. But it is under your control.
I see you have gotten a lot of great and Godly advice, but that doesn't stop all those brain chemicals and glands from producing all those thought s and feelings you are left fighting, wondering which part is the "real" you and which part if the "flesh" surrounding you. Sorry I can' t help with the "gay" part I know nothing about that but I do know a bit about "fixing" what ails us long enough to NOT arrive in heaven to a God all pissed off at the one who killed one of His Sons, namely you. God didn't say it would be easy but He did give us power and actions and it is time you took advantage of them.
Use the power over evil and cast that demon out. In the name of Jesus get thee hence Satan. YOU have to invoke that power yourself. No one can do it for you.
Repent and be forgiven. But pray and really
get a hold of this>God Himself loved you so much that not only did He create you, when He figured out you couldn't get back to Him without some help He came and was beat to a pulp, humiliated, and crucified so that the INFINITE VALUE of HIS BLOOD would wash you clean. Do you really get that??? FORGIVEN. We are all sinners and all have crosses to bear.
Isaiah 53:1 Who hath believed our report? and to whom is the arm of the LORD revealed?
Isaiah 53:2 For he shall grow up before him as a tender plant, and as a root out of a dry ground: he hath no form nor comeliness; and when we shall see him, there is no beauty that we should desire him.
Isaiah 53:3 He is despised and rejected of men; a man of sorrows, and acquainted with grief: and we hid as it were our faces from him; he was despised, and we esteemed him not.
Isaiah 53:4 Surely he hath borne our griefs, and carried our sorrows: yet we did esteem him stricken, smitten of God, and afflicted.
Isaiah 53:5 But he was wounded for our transgressions, he was bruised for our iniquities: the chastisement of our peace was upon him; and with his stripes we are healed.
Isaiah 53:6 All we like sheep have gone astray; we have turned every one to his own way; and the LORD hath laid on him the iniquity of us all.
Isaiah 53:7 He was oppressed, and he was afflicted, yet he opened not his mouth: he is brought as a lamb to the slaughter, and as a sheep before her shearers is dumb, so he openeth not his mouth.
Isaiah 53:8 He was taken from prison and from judgment: and who shall declare his generation? for he was cut off out of the land of the living: for the transgression of my people was he stricken.
Isaiah 53:9 And he made his grave with the wicked, and with the rich in his death; because he had done no violence, neither was any deceit in his mouth.
Isaiah 53:10 Yet it pleased the LORD to bruise him; he hath put him to grief: when thou shalt make his soul an offering for sin, he shall see his seed, he shall prolong his days, and the pleasure of the LORD shall prosper in his hand.
Isaiah 53:11 He shall see of the travail of his soul, and shall be satisfied: by his knowledge shall my righteous servant justify many; for he shall bear their iniquities.
Isaiah 53:12 Therefore will I divide him a portion with the great, and he shall divide the spoil with the strong; because he hath poured out his soul unto death: and he was numbered with the transgressors; and he bare the sin of many, and made intercession for the transgressors.
Jesus did this for US. So
go get some unleaven cracker and wine and take the body and blood of Christ.
Here is something I very rarely hear mentioned but has been a practice of mine, and has helped more than words can describe.
Daniel 10:2 In those days I Daniel was mourning three full weeks.
Daniel 10:3 I ate no pleasant bread, neither came flesh nor wine in my mouth, neither did I anoint myself at all, till three whole weeks were fulfilled.
Did you catch all of that. Fasting and prayer. But, what really caught me off guard when I first read this was HE DID NOT ANOINT HIMSELF FOR 3 WEEKS. When I read this I thought, 3 weeks? I haven't anointed myself 3 times. That was then. No, I have not had a "miraculous" healing, but I have had a slow and very noticeable one. And all it takes is for you to find a little vial, go get some olive oil, put it in the vial, ask God to Bless it, and to start anointing yourself daily.
After 37 chapters of words without knowledge, and all the hell Job had gone through, What does God say when He first starts speaking to Job?
Job 38:1 Then the LORD answered Job out of the whirlwind, and said,
Job 38:2 Who is this that darkeneth counsel by words without knowledge?
Job 38:3
Gird up now thy loins like a man; for I will demand of thee, and answer thou me.
Get on the offensive, study the Word and abstain.
I pray this will help you as it has me.