Feeling ashamed to socialize...

It feels so weird... I probably only pretend nothing with God, and stay with him in all my life. But with others I feel so ashamed of myself. Even when I had more emotional troubles before I knew God, when I wanted to ask a friend for help, I felt embarrassed of myself because of what others might think of my friend being around someone low like me and I may make my friend look bad... Even with old friends I just feel ashamed of them seeing me. With my family too, I just feel so ashamed of myself, and I always act distant and so shallow not saying much, but only talking to God... I don't know what to do

Really what you're doing is thinking for each other, and deciding what they think. You don't give people a chance to form their own opinions of you, because you keep them at bay. Letting people in will bring about some rejection, but it will also bring about friendships. Right now the only person you're hurting is yourself, you're the only one to blame. And thus you are the only one that can fix it. Start letting people decide for themselves.

Thank you for always being kind in replying Subhumanoid al! The truth isn't easy for me to accept, but it's what I needed to hear, so thank you for it. Before I knew God, I wanted to have one person I could trust and know loved me so I didn't have to deal with depression and anxiety alone. When I knew God, I was so happy, but apart of me saw no need to search for kind people anymore, and because of the risk I thought people could have, I turned up with the nervous attitude I have now about the subject. I feel like I've just hid from the world in a tent keeping only me and God, and it's only made me feel crazy at times with envy when I see other people socializ.e Thank you again for telling me this! God bless you!

Ever heard of the two boats and a helicopter.

A storm descends on a small town, and the downpour soon turns into a flood. As the waters rise, the local preacher kneels in prayer on the church porch, surrounded by water. By and by, one of the townsfolk comes up the street in a canoe.

"Better get in, Preacher. The waters are rising fast."

"No," says the preacher. "I have faith in the Lord. He will save me."

Still the waters rise. Now the preacher is up on the balcony, wringing his hands in supplication, when another guy zips up in a motorboat.

"Come on, Preacher. We need to get you out of here. The levee's gonna break any minute."

Once again, the preacher is unmoved. "I shall remain. The Lord will see me through."

After a while the levee breaks, and the flood rushes over the church until only the steeple remains above water. The preacher is up there, clinging to the cross, when a helicopter descends out of the clouds, and a state trooper calls down to him through a megaphone.

"Grab the ladder, Preacher. This is your last chance."

Once again, the preacher insists the Lord will deliver him.

And, predictably, he drowns.

A pious man, the preacher goes to heaven. After a while he gets an interview with God, and he asks the Almighty, "Lord, I had unwavering faith in you. Why didn't you deliver me from that flood?"

God shakes his head. "What did you want from me? I sent you two boats and a helicopter."

On a different note, I’m afraid too sometimes especially heights.

“To love at all is to be vulnerable. Love anything and your heart will be wrung and possibly broken. If you want to make sure of keeping it intact you must give it to no one, not even an animal. Wrap it carefully round with hobbies and little luxuries; avoid all entanglements. Lock it up safe in the casket or coffin of your selfishness. But in that casket, safe, dark, motionless, airless, it will change. It will not be broken; it will become unbreakable, impenetrable, irredeemable. To love is to be vulnerable.”
C. S. Lewis

Talk to a Christian Mental Counselor to work with. Maybe your Pastor or Teachers can recommend a few..