I am so disturbed

I feel everything in my life has just gone from bad to worst. There's not a single day I go to bed without shedding a tear. I need help. I need someone whom I can talk to. And someone who can guide me.

Welcome to CC, Eunica,
There are some wise ladies on this site who may be happy to lend you an ear. May the Lord bless and guide you, and provide the help you need.

Thank you

Hello Eunica, welcome aboard. I am sad to hear your heart is hurting. It is good, imo, that you reach out. We all are for one another.

There is a ladies forum here, where I encourage you to express what is on your heart and mind. I agree with Dino, there are many ladies here who are ready and eager to listen and care.

You are not alone and nobody cares more than our Lord and Savior. I hope you are calling out to Him.

Hugs and love in Christ.

Thank you CharliRenee

We live in a disturbing world. I was looking for a meditation to share, and found this on a page among many:

Many of us show up at a place in our lives with a particular agenda. We think we are there to get the job done, build a relationship, accomplish a task. Then, life takes a twist, one we didn’t quite expect or plan on.

We discover we’re at a certain place for a reason different from what we thought. The real reason we’re there is to cleanse the past and heal our broken heart. Healing our heart is a worthwhile mission, more purposeful perhaps than the one we intended. Healing our heart is worthwhile and crucial, something that often needs to be done first, so that we can accomplish what we intended.

The biggest block to service and love is a broken heart. To care about life again, to open our hearts, to dare to dream, to risk love again, we must first heal our heart. Decide on your mission. Be clear on your purpose. But remember, first things need to be done first.

Maybe you’re where you are today for a reason other than you thought.
Maybe the first thing to do is cleanse the past and heal your heart.
From "Journey To The Heart"

Thank you Magenta. This is very encouraging.

You are welcome, Eunica Do you have any type of daily schedule that you follow for building up/maintaining spiritual strength, such as prayer and meditation? I also wonder if you have any support in your community... do you have a home church where you are able to share what is really going on in your life and in your heart with any of the members? Have you ever attended any 12 step groups?

Yes I do have my own group at church. But not open to discuss my issues. I did try to share my problems with a few known people asking them to pray. However seems like a few days down the line they were laughing at my back and seemed to ignore me. Yes I do try to spend time in prayer before bed and as soon as I wake up.

You can talk to us here. We may be far away but someone will always be here to listen to you. I just said a prayer for you. I hope you start feeling better soon.

Thank you.

I'm so sorry to read of your troubles...I've experienced that myself. More than once.
Like someone just mentioned, you could look around for different churches to attend that are more truthful in their work.

I chose to worship at home until I get moved...lots of material online. You will also find that other types of Bibles are worded differently, what one does not help with, another will. There are Bibles online.

Some places will give Bibles away, a good way to have different versions.
I worship on my own, I find solace and peace there. But occasionally I need to attend with like minded souls.

Just remember that even by yourself, you are never alone. The Lord is always there. Getting closer to him privately can be a great experience in itself. Don't push, just let him come to you.

May you be blessed in your journey...God Bless You.

So beautifully and honestly said.

What's happening in your life .. I will pray that God gives you