Please pray to God that I might have a reason to live. As it stands I have absolutely no hope for the future and can't conceive of things getting better. Please ask God to help me if it be his will, i have no hope and don't believe I ever will. My life is a waste.
Thanks for reading and if you pray.
I am completely in despair.
I am terribly sorry you are FEELING this way NOW.
Everyone has given wonderful, loving encouragement. I wish to do the same.
First, it is vital to always remember that FEELINGS are temporary but Truth is eternal. You temporarily feel despair, and depressed, and maybe you have for a long time, and can't see that anything will change with those feelings. However, if you have put your faith in Jesus, believed Who He is, and what He has done, then you can be assured that His Truth is Eternal, and that you will be with Him eternally, never again to feel like you do now.
THAT IS A HOPE FOR YOUR FUTURE!
So what do you do now though?
You get up every morning with the joy in the knowledge of that future Truth.
You serve Him.
You look for ways to help others. It is VERY difficult to feel depressed when you are genuinely helping others.
You DO NOT dwell on YOUR situation or problems, but look outwardly to Christ, and the need His children have.
You spread His Truth, The Gospel, in every opportunity He gives you.
You be thankful by sitting down and actually writing all the good and blessings he has given you in this life. Start with a full belly, a computer to work on, and work your way out from there. You'd be surprised how blessed you truly are by seeing the massive list you just wrote.
DO NOT FOCUS ON WHAT'S NOT ON THE LIST!!
Go to bed each night thanking Him for all of the above, you wake up and REPEAT!
Holy Father, reveal yourself to this young man in unmistakable ways, show him that he is soooo valuable that You gave Your Son for Him. In Jesus Name I pray.