I am so sorry,Gemmy! I know it is hard when faced with such destruction from one you shared much with. I am glad to read you trust Jesus,please do NOT beat yourself up over your slackness! His yoke is easy and He stands beside you giving support even when we do not realize it! We are to bear one ANOTHER'S burdens also,where I may not can actually reach you pyhsically,I am helping shoulder your load. God does move when we ask and He never fails us in giving a response. I will be praying for peace in your heart and restoration of the things you need. Sometimes parents don't realize our children are adults and have rights to conduct their own lives. I will also lift up your parents for an understanding and softening. Hold to Him whether in a storm or sunshine,sweetie,He truly loves you! Remember your family in Christ cares also,and we are collectively praying for you! Love LAM.