thank you for sharing your story,i was very touched by it .I really wish you had a different childhood and upbringing but I am happy God set you free and you are healed .
God bless you and your family
The interesting thing sister yes my childhood was shocking.
It wasn't only sexual immorality in my life but also a severe gambling problem.
It was so bad I asked God to kill me.
Waking up at the same time every morning @4
Saying to him "Ok kill me now then I will know where I am going"
Every day when I tried to jerk the steering wheel in my car over the speed limit it never happened.
One day I woke up and thought "Ok I'm still alive so there must be a purpose"
God had to heal me from the pains I talked about earlier on.
Which is why said let's not limit it to sexual immorality.
But I thank God for my past.
Because I have been obedient to his calling and understanding of me as his kid.
Therefore I rejoice in
Romans 8:28-30
28 And we know that all things work together for good to those who love God, to those who are the called according to His purpose. 29 For whom He foreknew, He also predestined to be conformed to the image of His Son, that He might be the firstborn among many brethren. 30 Moreover whom He predestined, these He also called; whom He called, these He also justified; and whom He justified, these He also glorified.
He worked together all the things that happened to me in order to
Ephesians 2:8-10
8 For by grace you have been saved through faith, and that not of yourselves; it is the gift of God, 9 not of works, lest anyone should boast. 10 For we are His workmanship, created in Christ Jesus for good works, which God prepared beforehand that we should walk in them.
He knew what would happen to.
He worked good in this (not made it good )
Conformed me to the image o Jesus so I walk in the works prepared for me.
Those works are coming alonside people like I was.
This I thank him for.
After all what use would I be if I have not been through it?