Welcome to CC and nice to meet you. First, if you like, post this on the Prayer Request Forum where more brothers and sisters in Christ will lift you up in prayer. Second, a great thing to do is get involved in some volunteer work, you may have to force yourself, but it will pay off. Believe God does not want you that way and start quoting Scriptures that say who God says you are. "You have the mind of Christ', 'He gives you a peace that passes your understanding', for examples and drown out the darkness of lies, God bless!