Hello and welcome, Steve. So glad you came. Asking, answering, and discussing Biblical and Spiritual questions is what we do in the Bible Discussion Forum (BDF), but since this is your thread and it is still fresh, you can ask right here and right now if you want to. Let me know if you want me to start a private conversation with you. It would be much better to ask right here in public, though, so all might contribute and profit.
I see you are 'unsure' about your Spiritual Status. I want to reassure you that you can be sure. Jesus loves you and wants you to have that blessed assurance.
Revelations 3:20 Behold, I stand at the door, and knock: if any man hear my voice, and open the door, I will come in to him, and will sup with him, and he with me.