I'm sorry, Ellorah. This was painful to read and I'm sorry your relationship ended. A very wise man - a mentor, really - told me once that God was much less likely to help me with my own pathway in life, but would help with abundance with His own. So, I think in your case, letting go might mean your hopes and dreams are still very much intact, remembering God plotted your course before you were born.
So, I'll pray your 'hermit lifestyle' will run its own course and your fears subside. You seem like a person whose light should never be covered.
Thank you and God bless you for your kind words ! I take each day as it comes. You are very kind 🙏
