Living in fear

Hello everyone. What I'm about to say may sound weird to some people, but I don't care.

I'm a Christian, but I live with a lot of fear. I sometimes feel as though I'm afraid of everything, and my faith isn't even a place I can go to for comfort.

I was raised in a loving Christian family and have been a Christian for 8 years, but I'm also on the spectrum and this greatly influences how I think. I think very black and white with very little room for gray, and I think it's because of that that I'm often fearful.

Doesn't sound weird to me. I feel the same way, to be honest. And I have OCD which makes it even worse.

I tend to perseverate over things.

To be honest, I know we can't predict Jesus's return. But whenever I hear a prediction, I'm reminded.

I don't want Jesus to return yet! It'll mean leaving this life which is all I've ever known for the completely unknown. And the idea of finally facing God fills me not with joy but with terror.

fear is not always a bad thing, sometimes fear can stop up from doing something stupid, think about gideon a cautious man who needed much reassurance from God, we live in fearful times, Jesus also was afraid that's why he asked for the cup to be removed from him but he had the faith to drink it, its all right to be afraid but when u are ask God for his courage and protection and know in all things we are conquerors through him

I get it, just thought I'd share this plan I just read from you version app. I love how God works. These words may not relate to what you are experiencing but maybe it can provide a take away. I agree with Noble, maybe some of those fears are protection whispers from within.

Well here is what I just read.


Not only is fear a hindrance in your life, but it also places a filter of distorted perspective over your mind. Fear and anxiety produce worry, a false sense of security, and a desire for the things in this world.

Remember that out of fear you develop a desire for something that is unable to fulfill you? The need for recognition, to please people, for financial stability, the dependence on another--these things become something you crave, perhaps feel you need. In that place, your perspective becomes distorted. Your number one isn’t God, but instead something empty in this world.

Yesterday I hope you stopped to take stock of the fears driving your life and the struggles they produce. Today, look at how those fears and struggles affect your view on life. Do they get in the way of what’s best and most healthy for you?

Mark mentions that worry, false security, and a desire for the things of this world will choke out the word and leave your life unfruitful. Is that the kind of life you want to live? Probably not. Come back tomorrow to learn more about the proper perspective.

but the cares of the world and the deceitfulness of riches and the desires for other things enter in and choke the word, and it proves unfruitful.
Mark 4:19 ESV

Here is the next days

A Proper Perspective

Matthew 6:33 is one of two of my favorite verses in the Bible! It makes a mission in life so clear.

Put God first and everything that you worry about and fear will take care of itself.

Jesus is illustrating that humans worry about so many fears in our life; worry that is an overflow from our fears. And he shares that if God will take care of the birds and the vegetation, how much more will He attend to your needs?

I get it--worry comes easy and is hard to fight. But worry can cause so much harm to how God wants to use you. It’s seeps into your relationships, job, and finances, just to name a few. And when it gets in there, distrust and lack of faith takes root.

Instead of having the distorted perspective, have a proper one! The proper direction for your eyes isn’t on the things of this world and your worries, but on God. When that perspective begins to get distorted, recite this verse and fix your eyes on Jesus. That might mean putting on some worship music, or hitting the ground in prayer, or stepping back from a situation.

If you can get your eyes on God and focus on Him, all those other elements will fall into place. You cast your care to God and God will take care of everything else.


But seek first the kingdom of God and his righteousness, and all these things will be added to you.
Matthew 6:33 ESV

The plan is called fear and anxiety if you are interested and it is in the you version app.

In any event, I'm terrified by the idea of Jesus returning. Both because it means leaving everything familiar and I'll be facing God himself. It sometimes frightens me to the point where I want to cry.

I know being a Christian is the right thing to do. But God honestly scares me half the time. Even if he is all good, he's also all-powerful and not like me at all. I don't see how I can ever truly love someone like that, who's in no way my equal and whom I'll have to be subject to forever.

I'm not proud of any of this.

I applaud you for your honesty. That's admirable....I think so anyway.

Thank you. I just wish I didn't feel so alone in this.

I'm sorry. I wish you didn't either.

I once read this one person's end time prediction that had something to do with the Jewish people. I know it's not possible to predict Jesus's return, but it was my reaction to it that really bothered me.

I started hoping the prediction wouldn't come true. And for whatever reason, my mind connected that to somehow feeling resentment toward Jews.

This was not an intentional thing of mine. I'm on the spectrum and my mind makes really bizarre connections sometimes without my consent. I wish I could explain it better. But this is not something I want to feel.

Your mind isn't always your friend. Trust me, I know.

I know that. I just wish I knew what to do!

I'll keep you in my thoughts and prayers. Hope things get better for you.

Please do. Thanks.

I will. And you're welcome.

HistoryPrincess, you are not at all alone in this.
A lot of people I come in contact with live in fear of the unknown. I am quite a bit older than you, and maybe shouldn't be on this thread, but I want you to know that some of the Chrisitan life is scary. Hey, Sis, sometimes I fear what is coming too.
God is not out to hammer you, or do you in. Part of faith is LEARNING to love God. No, it is not automatic, but it is a choice.
Hang in there Fellow Traveller, I'm praying for you!

Thank you.

I think it is a process learning to trust Him fully. I get it and some days harder than others. I am praying for you.

Thank you very much.

You are by no means alone in this 😀