Porn/Sex Addiction...

Hi guys, as you probably know by the title, I have been struggling with a porn addiction for some time. It started when I was 12. After watching it I vowed never to do it again, as it was somewhat traumatizing. About a year later I looked it up again, this time I actually enjoyed it. Every time I from then on when I tried to stop, I would get so overcome with guilt and instead of turning to Christ in the time of need, I turned back to porn, to get that momentary high and forget about the reality that is Christ. This would continue for hours and hours sometimes days, stopping only to eat or do homework(which at 13 there really isn't that much). this continued for about a year, and at 14 was the first time I masturbated. By then the guilt of watching porn had subsided and I was... okay with it. However after masturbating the first time at 14, I was over come with guilt, and a bit traumatized again. I didn't even think of sex until a month later when I saw a commercial . Then, like a switch, I had to have that release I felt a month before. Since then it has been a huge problem in my life. The longest I've gone was a week without masturbating(a few weeks ago) and I have to say I don't think I have felt that good in a long time. I was nicer, happier, and more willing to be productive with things like schoolwork. A few days ago, I fell back into the trap again and I don't know if I can get out. I hate the porn industry, and I hate how it advertises women like they're chunks of meat. Call me sexist, but as a man, I have the duty, and responsibility to protect and honor women. I Strongly feel this way and it enrages me to see guys take advantage of girls, and to see how the media presents women as nothing more than a pretty face with a big chest. But when I see those images, the switch flips and I am in my bathroom again... Ignoring everything God has been telling me my whole life. I reached out in Christian Chat hear because I am done "hoping" this will magically stop. I am addicted to masturbating and I need help. I have prayed to God over and over again but there is no change in my mind. I feel broken and helpless and I don't know what to do. I have never told anyone about this, so be nice with your criticisms please. I'm not an open person in real life and I don't know what I'm doing. I need help. As I write this X-rated images are floating through my head...please

Hi guys, as you probably know by the title, I have been struggling with a porn addiction for some time. It started when I was 12. After watching it I vowed never to do it again, as it was somewhat traumatizing. About a year later I looked it up again, this time I actually enjoyed it. Every time I from then on when I tried to stop, I would get so overcome with guilt and instead of turning to Christ in the time of need, I turned back to porn, to get that momentary high and forget about the reality that is Christ. This would continue for hours and hours sometimes days, stopping only to eat or do homework(which at 13 there really isn't that much). this continued for about a year, and at 14 was the first time I masturbated. By then the guilt of watching porn had subsided and I was... okay with it. However after masturbating the first time at 14, I was over come with guilt, and a bit traumatized again. I didn't even think of sex until a month later when I saw a commercial . Then, like a switch, I had to have that release I felt a month before. Since then it has been a huge problem in my life. The longest I've gone was a week without masturbating(a few weeks ago) and I have to say I don't think I have felt that good in a long time. I was nicer, happier, and more willing to be productive with things like schoolwork. A few days ago, I fell back into the trap again and I don't know if I can get out. I hate the porn industry, and I hate how it advertises women like they're chunks of meat. Call me sexist, but as a man, I have the duty, and responsibility to protect and honor women. I Strongly feel this way and it enrages me to see guys take advantage of girls, and to see how the media presents women as nothing more than a pretty face with a big chest. But when I see those images, the switch flips and I am in my bathroom again... Ignoring everything God has been telling me my whole life. I reached out in Christian Chat hear because I am done "hoping" this will magically stop. I am addicted to masturbating and I need help. I have prayed to God over and over again but there is no change in my mind. I feel broken and helpless and I don't know what to do. I have never told anyone about this, so be nice with your criticisms please. I'm not an open person in real life and I don't know what I'm doing. I need help. As I write this X-rated images are floating through my head...please

I didn't attempt to read your post because, well, wall of text. Paragraphs are your friend.
The key here is "addiction". Just like drug or alcohol addiction won't go away by itself, or by reading a book, neither will porn addiction.
Things like web sites may have resources, but its going to take more than just visiting them. You'll need to be more proactive to get past this. Counseling should not be ruled out.

That said here's another link to help you with motivation. This site has lots of articles about the effects of porn on your brain, relationships. It shares real stories of people and the damaging effects porn had on their life.
It also gives behind the scenes info on the racism, rampant drugs use, blackmail, coercion, forced acts, the physical damage to performers and more.
It talks about the link between porn and sex trafficking.
It shares interviews with current and former employees in porn, both actors/actresses and directors and other behind the scene figures.
It will definitely make you think twice as these stories float through your head while firing up the PC.

But, again, it's just a resource and not a solution. Treat this like an addiction, because it is.

Most guys have done what you have at one time or another so please know that you are not alone with this. Also know that God understands the human condition quite well and understands about your addiction. With God's help you will be able to overcome this but it will not be easy so be prepared to fight. God will be with you on this.

I am a drug addict and nicotine is my drug of choice and I have been struggling with this for years. I have prayed for God to deliver me from this evil habit but He didn't answer my prayer because He knew I was lying about wanting to stop. Lately, I have felt conviction on this and I intend to try once again to put an end to this habit once and for all. A lot of the members have been very supportive of me and I am sure that they will appreciate the struggle you are going through also and will pray for you as they have for me. As I have said, most of us have gone through this too so welcome to the brotherhood of man.

I will say a prayer for God to deliver you from this addiction. Perhaps He will deliver me from my addiction as I believe I am now serious about quitting.

The struggle is real.

Umm... I have to admit that I saw that you had replied to this post on my newsfeed so I was interested to know what you'd said. (I hope you won't mind that. I didn't mean it like stalking or something.) The link and it's information looked like it would be very good... and that it would be a good resource to have to be able to share in related conversations. But I am not finding the link?

Most guys have done what you have at one time or another so please know that you are not alone with this. Also know that God understands the human condition quite well and understands about your addiction. With God's help you will be able to overcome this but it will not be easy so be prepared to fight. God will be with you on this.

I am a drug addict and nicotine is my drug of choice and I have been struggling with this for years. I have prayed for God to deliver me from this evil habit but He didn't answer my prayer because He knew I was lying about wanting to stop. Lately, I have felt conviction on this and I intend to try once again to put an end to this habit once and for all. A lot of the members have been very supportive of me and I am sure that they will appreciate the struggle you are going through also and will pray for you as they have for me. As I have said, most of us have gone through this too so welcome to the brotherhood of man.

I will say a prayer for God to deliver you from this addiction. Perhaps He will deliver me from my addiction as I believe I am now serious about quitting.

The struggle is real.

To all of you who commented, thank you. For not only replying, but listening. I have been feeling alone for a long time and this made me feel a bit better After holding it in and not telling anyone for almost 6 years, I finally don't feel completely alone. As far as counselling, is there any such thing as a Christian Therapist? I'm not to fond of the way psychiatry is practiced... too much "I can help MYSELF"...If you disagree, let me know.

Oops, you're right. I was distracted when writing and forgot the link.

https://fightthenewdrug.org/

There are Christian counselors as well. But, to a degree, that's what psychiatry is. You have to do the work. And that's not unchristian. Its finding the balance between the often hyperspiritualization of Christian's and the atheistic or new age tendencies of self help counseling.
You don't want to get stuck in the "sit around and wait for God to fix you" mentality often taught by Christian's. God expects you to work too, most often.