I'm trying to stay strong (please pray)

Sunlight77, Words of encouragement for you in the Lord....Hebrews 4: Since then we have a great high priest who has passed through the heavens, Jesus, the Son of God, let us hold fast our confession. 15 For we do not have a high priest who is unable to sympathize with our weaknesses, but one who in every respect has been tempted as we are, yet without sin. 16 Let us then with confidence draw near to the throne of grace, that we may receive mercy and find grace to help in time of need.

Jesus promises to bring healing & strength to all those areas that seem weak or broken in your life. Walking with the Lord is a day by day journey of Trusting Him with our whole life completely. There will be days when we stumble & fall...BUT.....Jesus promises to help us back up on our feet & will lovingly remind us of His forgiveness. His desire for all of us is that we overcome those strong holds within our hearts & minds that try to dominate us. He wants to bring freedom in those areas. My prayer for you is that you will learn to trust the Lord daily , and learn of His ways through reading your bible. Allowing your mind to be renewed through the scriptures is vital to overcoming strongholds, such as anger etc...For me personally....before my feet hit the floor in the mornings, I spend time reading some scriptures, as I know there are a multitude of things that come against me on any given day. Allowing the word into my heart & mind brings me peace, strength & I feel better equipped to get through my day, and more importantly it brings growth & maturity within my spirit & draws me closer to the Lord. I understand, by reading your post that you are dealing with a lot of battles daily, things that are robbing you of Peace. The Good News is Jesus will help you overcome these things, & He will build strength within your spirit, and bring the spirit of Joy & Peace...The fruits of the spirit are Love, Joy, Peace, Patience, Kindness, Goodness, Gentleness & Faithfulness & Self Control. As you take life one day at a time with the Lord & nurture your mind & spirit in the word, You will find yourself growing in the Fruits of the Spirit. Being part of a spirit filled church & surrounding yourself with other believers is as important! Be strong in the Lord & He will help you overcome. Your Heavenly Father Loves You!
Timothy 6:12 Fight the good fight of faith; take hold of the eternal life to which you were called, and you made the good confession in the presence of many witnesses.

Hello guys, I am struggling very bad with mental oppression and I am at the end of being strong. I am coming to realize that I am not a good person and everyone always seem to confirm this. I have tried giving out encouragement, love, and light to others because I know how it feels to know pain and experience a sense of worthlessness. I also have tried calling out for help, but no one really knows how to help. I feel like once I do receive encouraging words, I do feel better.. I start having hope again.. then BOOM.. something comes and takes it away, then I am back to square 1. When I do feel like this, I felt like God was not there and he did not love me, but He is and he does love me, I just can't figure out how to handle my life. I can't even enjoy my life due to anxiety. I have a problem with anger and this has been since childhood.. I have a explosive temper once I have reached a breaking point like today. After, I feel so full of shame. That person is NOT me and it's not who I want to be. I am so frustrated with everything right now. All I want is to isolate myself. I feel different, I feel horrible, I feel like I do not belong. I am at my wits end here. I know someone is reading this and I hope you do not judge me, this is me opening up to how I feel. Sometimes, I am better at writing how I feel then talking about it. I hold things in, I do not trust people to tell them what is going on.. (fear of being judged) or looking at me differently. but can someone please pray for me, I am trying to be strong here. To be a great mom, and to fulfill God's purpose, but I am scared for myself at the moment. This will be my last post for awhile. Thank you for everyone's kind words in advance, God sees you.. and I pray God will lead the right person to this post to pray for me and my family. Thank you so much.


-Sunlight77

Hello guys, I am struggling very bad with mental oppression and I am at the end of being strong. I am coming to realize that I am not a good person and everyone always seem to confirm this. I have tried giving out encouragement, love, and light to others because I know how it feels to know pain and experience a sense of worthlessness. I also have tried calling out for help, but no one really knows how to help. I feel like once I do receive encouraging words, I do feel better.. I start having hope again.. then BOOM.. something comes and takes it away, then I am back to square 1. When I do feel like this, I felt like God was not there and he did not love me, but He is and he does love me, I just can't figure out how to handle my life. I can't even enjoy my life due to anxiety. I have a problem with anger and this has been since childhood.. I have a explosive temper once I have reached a breaking point like today. After, I feel so full of shame. That person is NOT me and it's not who I want to be. I am so frustrated with everything right now. All I want is to isolate myself. I feel different, I feel horrible, I feel like I do not belong. I am at my wits end here. I know someone is reading this and I hope you do not judge me, this is me opening up to how I feel. Sometimes, I am better at writing how I feel then talking about it. I hold things in, I do not trust people to tell them what is going on.. (fear of being judged) or looking at me differently. but can someone please pray for me, I am trying to be strong here. To be a great mom, and to fulfill God's purpose, but I am scared for myself at the moment. This will be my last post for awhile. Thank you for everyone's kind words in advance, God sees you.. and I pray God will lead the right person to this post to pray for me and my family. Thank you so much.


-Sunlight77

Hello guys, I am struggling very bad with mental oppression and I am at the end of being strong. I am coming to realize that I am not a good person and everyone always seem to confirm this. I have tried giving out encouragement, love, and light to others because I know how it feels to know pain and experience a sense of worthlessness. I also have tried calling out for help, but no one really knows how to help. I feel like once I do receive encouraging words, I do feel better.. I start having hope again.. then BOOM.. something comes and takes it away, then I am back to square 1. When I do feel like this, I felt like God was not there and he did not love me, but He is and he does love me, I just can't figure out how to handle my life. I can't even enjoy my life due to anxiety. I have a problem with anger and this has been since childhood.. I have a explosive temper once I have reached a breaking point like today. After, I feel so full of shame. That person is NOT me and it's not who I want to be. I am so frustrated with everything right now. All I want is to isolate myself. I feel different, I feel horrible, I feel like I do not belong. I am at my wits end here. I know someone is reading this and I hope you do not judge me, this is me opening up to how I feel. Sometimes, I am better at writing how I feel then talking about it. I hold things in, I do not trust people to tell them what is going on.. (fear of being judged) or looking at me differently. but can someone please pray for me, I am trying to be strong here. To be a great mom, and to fulfill God's purpose, but I am scared for myself at the moment. This will be my last post for awhile. Thank you for everyone's kind words in advance, God sees you.. and I pray God will lead the right person to this post to pray for me and my family. Thank you so much.


-Sunlight77

Definitely praying for you. I think you are doing the right thing by reaching out to others. like you I write things down because its hard for me to share with people how I feel. I think that's why I enjoy this forum so much, I can write about my feelings and someone actually reads it and doesn't judge me. I believe writing your feelings down everyday, keeping a journal can help with anger issues. just being to get it out. then you can go back and look at your good days and bad days. there is a lot of truth in the saying " let go and let GOD" it is hard to step back and take a breath and trust . Just know he is with you. He will never leave you or forsake you. I am praying right now that GOD will give me the words to say to you to help. You say you are at your wits end and scared for yourself. I think its time to reach out to GOD. " Psalms 34:17 The Lord hears a good man when he calls to him for help and saves him out of all his troubles" I don't know you but it sounds like you ARE a good person and you love GOD and you know he loves you. I am no one to be giving advice but maybe you should not try so hard to be strong. You have access to one of the worlds greatest resources. Trust in him, lean on him. focus on GOD and his word. let him work. I realize these are just words from somebody you don't know but I feel like GOD laid it on my heart to try to encourage you today. People do care, I care. GOD cares. I pray he blesses you and your family and all will be well.

It sounds to me like you really need something that cannot be taken away. The realization that you're not a good person is not completely a bad thing, but judging this by other people is a HUGE mistake and is in every way false, only Gods standard means anything, and we all fall very short of that. To be very honest it seems to me you are measuring your happiness and hope by the things of this world and current worldly circumstance. Things come and things go, but there is one foundation that will always be, Jesus. Everything you were describing as a problem is living by sight, in the flesh. The anger, the anxiety, the fear, these are all things that God can take from you and replace them with a peace you can't imagine.

You said "I also have tried calling out for help, but no one really knows how to help", call out to Christ, tell Him. It sounds like you understand pretty well that "your way" does not lead to peace. "Our way" does not work, this is where you repent, tell God with all you mind, heart, and strength, "God my way does not work, please show me your way, please show me your truth through Jesus, I want to die to my ways and be reborn in Your Spirit by Your power." Ask God sister, He can give you everything you need to put these things to peace in your life.

I also pray, Father please continue to draw this sister into your truth, please give her the peace that is only obtained through your amazing mercy and grace, I thank you God for loving us and making a way for us to come to you. I pray you make your glory manifest in her life, and become known to her in ways she could never imagine, please Father use her life to testify of your glory until the day you meet face to face. Father I also pray you guide her into being the best mom her children could have, all in Jesus mighty name. Amen.

Aww, thank you so much for writing this it means beyond words to me. God bless you too!

This is what God does in our hearts so we can be here for each other and help build up, all credit goes to Jesus and it is a blessing to me to have an opportunity get to listen to you and share. Your worth is beyond measure, we can't even fathom in our minds how much you mean to God, and it has NOTHING AT ALL to do with what any man (or woman of course) thinks, that even includes ourselves, trust me on that I've battled suicide pretty hard before as well, I felt worthless and useless for a good while. We do have worth, we do have purpose, we can have peace, but everything good, everything true, this reconciliation with God is only found in Jesus Christ. I am still praying God grant you repentance and that He draw you into Himself through Christ, and open your eyes wider to these truths, to ignite a fire in you for Him, in Jesus name, by His grace, and all revealing His immense and totally indescribable glory. Amen.