i guess i am in the right place. i will go into a malaise and then , well i can choose a depression or sometimes it chooses me. then coming out it's like the bens, like coming up to fast from an underwater dive i reckon. no matter how quickly (when i decide i have had enough) i decide to come out of a depression, wham! then the anxieties. and these psychiatrist will try and put a label on you. GOD forbid you speak of CHRIST, oh no, you are bipolar or schitzo or whatever the disorder of the day is, it was dual diagnosed when i was going to AA. i have to be honest, i do not know what i was diagnosed with at the psychiatric hospital or the state hospital, it was probably ok. but GOD(JESUS)HOLY GHOST), HE can bring us out of these melancholies. i know, i've done it. yes he did it but what does philippians 4:13 tell us=I CAN do anything through CHRIST=HE strengthens me. i am not saying i had an easy time. everything i heard had 2 meanings. it is of CHRIST or of the evil one. i have seen odd things. BUT THIS TOO PASSES. praise the lord. i wonder if(i know this sounds crazy, i am) WHEN THIS HAPPENS if the holy spirit is getting more of us and the devil is getting more ferocious. that is kinda what scripture says. WE ARE to be filled with the SPIRIT, THAT IS A COMMAND! GOD commands us to be filled, ephesians 5:13. and i never mentioned any of this to my psychiatrist, if i had i would still be there. don't nobody turn me in, promise. heheheheheheehe! DON'T GET ME WRONG, i still have these anxieties, but they are diminishing. i hate to see them go, then it could be depression time again. i wonder how many people go through this in the world, and you never know it, i bet a ton of folks. with man and woman it is impossible but with GOD ALL THINGS ARE POSSIBLE. GODSPEED!