OK, I hope you never turn, because I know you know you are saved. Right?
someone earlier was asking some of us believers here
"why" we believe
this is my honest answer
Welp I had many doubts about God for many reasons growing up.... long story short I was agnostic ...
Then one of the many nights I was seeking truth (not Jesus but just truth in general... usually in history or science) I was hit with a spiritual brick (at least I called it this at the time)
I at that moment knew there is good
and there is evil
satan has had his hands in the way this world is headed and what people value
I knew at that moment I too was wicked and so where my desires
having never even read 1 page of the bible I had no idea God calls us
later I found out thats what this was
anyways
after this calling i HATED the fact i could have been wrong all this time
and I tried to disprove God to myself but I couldnt lie to myself
no matter how much I chose to do the things I then knew were evil..... it convicted me in a way it didn't before
and in my attempts to disprove God through science
and trying to find error in the bible
and make fun of pastors who would have even 1 fact incorrect
I became more and more soft to the truth
and hardened towards the lies my flesh wanted to be true
then I considered myself not a Christian
but a man who knew God to be true
and Jesus to be who He said He was
then I moved to a different state
and someone I knew happened to have an extra bible
instead of looking it up on the internet
I wanted one to hold for myself
so I asked him to give me one of his bibles
he agreed
and it already had my name on it..... it was the bible i recieved as a child over 15 years earlier that passed hands until it was returned to me....
I got goosebumps and this strange feeling all over me
from that point on
the more I walk with God
the stronger my faith grows
but even as just a droplet
the initial call was more than enough to keep me from believing anything else other than Him
I know He is who He says (the truth)
because His call
His work in me
His word
my faith is a product of being exposed to these
not how I know Hes true
oh
and now I am definitely a Christian man
and I also know I'm saved from the just punishment I deserve for the things I have done
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my faith comes from Him ultimately
as well as my assurance