Child of hell for 23 years. Finally took what was probably my last and only chance.

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Chicken_Brent

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Hello there.

Up to this point (a few months ago) ive never been taught the Gospel even though my Mom wouldve called herself "Christian" and used to pray. I guess shes the sort of person who, out of fear of hell, decided to act like it doesnt exist.

Christianity was always presented to me by uninterested atheist teachers in watered down versions. I quickly rejected it for those reasons.

Ive been a bit of a rascal from the moment i was placed in a public school, that place always felt like a prison. I got into fights almost daily and sent to the principals office every few weeks. Naturally public school bored me and all that resulted in a mediocre performance throughout my entire school life.

From the age of about 11 i had no more friends and spent up to 8 hours in front of the computer every day, playing videogames like World of Warcraft. It shouldnt be a surprise that its very easy for children or teenagers to get in contact with people who like to corrupt the youth and i suppose thats what happened.

I quickly got into pornography and developed a very unhealthy atheist world view. Started to have thoughts about how much i hated people, including myself, and often cursed my parents for their failure to supervise me. I got depressed and for times even considered suicide, was close to sending myself straight to hell.

Thankfully those feelings stopped when 2 years ago i met a person who warmed me up to Christianity.

Ive broken every single commandment throughout my life and when in early 2017 did something really horrible to that very person, something in myself just told me that i crossed a line.

I was shocked to realize that, when i talked to the person again, i was forgiven. That just blew my mind and up until this point wasnt even part of my own mindset.

Eventually, remaining in contact, said person led me to the Gospel and i received it. After that i at first doubted my salvation, thought my past actions were too awful or that i shouldve come to the Gospel myself, rather than hearing it from someone else. I quickly grew in Christ though and finally realized that those deeds are as far from me as the east is from the west.

So yea, ive turned from a depressed and suicidal animal with a human hating world view into a joyful person who often denies himself for God, reads the bible almost daily and goes to church every week.

The word has had an incredible, life changing impact on me and continues to do so. I definitely intend to lead others to salvation in the future.

Thanks for reading.
 
Ahwatukee

Ahwatukee

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Chicken_Brent said:
Hello there.

Up to this point (a few months ago) ive never been taught the Gospel even though my Mom wouldve called herself "Christian" and used to pray. I guess shes the sort of person who, out of fear of hell, decided to act like it doesnt exist.

Christianity was always presented to me by uninterested atheist teachers in watered down versions. I quickly rejected it for those reasons.

Ive been a bit of a rascal from the moment i was placed in a public school, that place always felt like a prison. I got into fights almost daily and sent to the principals office every few weeks. Naturally public school bored me and all that resulted in a mediocre performance throughout my entire school life.

From the age of about 11 i had no more friends and spent up to 8 hours in front of the computer every day, playing videogames like World of Warcraft. It shouldnt be a surprise that its very easy for children or teenagers to get in contact with people who like to corrupt the youth and i suppose thats what happened.

I quickly got into pornography and developed a very unhealthy atheist world view. Started to have thoughts about how much i hated people, including myself, and often cursed my parents for their failure to supervise me. I got depressed and for times even considered suicide, was close to sending myself straight to hell.

Thankfully those feelings stopped when 2 years ago i met a person who warmed me up to Christianity.

Ive broken every single commandment throughout my life and when in early 2017 did something really horrible to that very person, something in myself just told me that i crossed a line.

I was shocked to realize that, when i talked to the person again, i was forgiven. That just blew my mind and up until this point wasnt even part of my own mindset.

Eventually, remaining in contact, said person led me to the Gospel and i received it. After that i at first doubted my salvation, thought my past actions were too awful or that i shouldve come to the Gospel myself, rather than hearing it from someone else. I quickly grew in Christ though and finally realized that those deeds are as far from me as the east is from the west.

So yea, ive turned from a depressed and suicidal animal with a human hating world view into a joyful person who often denies himself for God, reads the bible almost daily and goes to church every week.

The word has had an incredible, life changing impact on me and continues to do so. I definitely intend to lead others to salvation in the future.

Thanks for reading.
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Greetings and Welcome, Brent! Awesome testimony!

Thanks be to God that you didn't take the suicide route. Many people have and do thinking that everything fades to black, that one becomes none existent at the time of death. However, according to scripture at the time of death, the spirit departs from the body. For the righteous, the spirit departs and goes immediately to be in the presence of Christ (2 Cor.5:6, Philippians 1:23). For those not in Christ, at the time of death their spirit departs and goes into Sheol/Hades as demonstrated in the event of the rich man and Lazarus found in Luke 16:19-31.

Again, Welcome!
 
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Chicken_Brent

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Ahwatukee said:
Greetings and Welcome, Brent! Awesome testimony!

Thanks be to God that you didn't take the suicide route. Many people have and do thinking that everything fades to black, that one becomes none existent at the time of death. However, according to scripture at the time of death, the spirit departs from the body. For the righteous, the spirit departs and goes immediately to be in the presence of Christ (2 Cor.5:6, Philippians 1:23). For those not in Christ, at the time of death their spirit departs and goes into Sheol/Hades as demonstrated in the event of the rich man and Lazarus found in Luke 16:19-31.

Again, Welcome!
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I just read that part, about the rich man and Lazarus earlier this morning. Thanks!
 
slave

slave

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Brent - That was a beautiful testimony. Thank you for sharing it. A "Rascal," that "fought" and had "isolated" himself resulting in having "no friends" internally being self-aware of things around him in the world, hooked on cycles of addictive gaming and open to addictions of other sorts, such as "hate," and "loathing," and "depression" and thoughts of "suicide" - Satan had gained ground in the mind of your lost soul. But the Lord drew you to Himself! Praise the Lord! Because He loves you, and has a plan to prosper you with hope and a future.

You now, as a babe in Christ, will grow up in Him. Its really that simple. It just happens to cost everything from your old life to do it is all. Be patient with yourself, but understand also that you are not needing to deny yourself for God. You are to realize thru Spiritual revelation that you have crossed over from death unto life. The old is gone and the new is here to stay for eternity in Christ Jesus! Amen! Denial, therefore, is actually death.

It is a now righteousness (a right aligned relationship with God thru Jesus Christ and the Holy Spirit) that you now live spiritually, and never in the flesh. For they are diametrically opposed to one another, yet the flesh is still wanting its way. But you are filled with power in the New Creation to not simply deny the flesh, but to also put to death the things of the flesh. Whats amazing to me is you will put to death the things of the flesh "practically" and "completely" as God empowers you to do so based on His will. Again, that deserves an "Amen!"

The Cross of Christ, for me, took on a new dimension over time. No longer was it just a point of Salvation; it became the place of self-abandonment and surrender to the call of God.

It was more than a place of forgiveness; it was a place of hallowed ground where He and I and all of the body of Christ stand and willingly identify with Jesus Christ. There was no longer two lives hanging together; there was one life of two who became apart of the One - namely Jesus Christ, fully merged yet identified with Christ leaving, yet, my own personality. Amazing as well as mind blowing! Right?!! :rolleyes: ...

It is where I "Give up the right to myself," and experience the fact that I have already died with Jesus on the Cross; as I die experientially to myself as I walk and talk and breath; day by day. It is where I experience for myself "dyeing to myself," even as it has already happened in the history of Christ on the Cross. Again, amazingly miraculous stuff!

Out of this death comes Life and the opportunity to live a Spirit-filled existence. (John 12:24): "Truly, truly, I say to you, unless a grain of wheat falls into the earth and dies, it remains alone; but if it dies, it bears much fruit." As I respond in obedience to God, He promises to lead and guide me thru life with a sense of victory and hope. The times of trial, distress, and isolation are times God has accomplished His greatest work, this is where He molds me into the likeness of Himself.

We all need to be ready for Jesus Christ; and we cannot be ready unless we have seen Him. The way we come to see Jesus and to know Him is to surrender "all" to Him. The blessing of living life abandoned to Him is to witness His daily power and grace alive and flowing thru our lives into the lives of others. Always involving the lives of others as well as our own new life in Him.

In my abandonment and surrender I have found an unbridled soul - one not tempted by the treasures of the world. Even tho Satan tempts me ill regardless. I am bound to the grace and glory of my Savior and Lord. I have been called to leave everything behind outside of Jesus Christ. And I accept...:eek:..

And here lies the journey: "The battle is lost or won in the secret places of my volitional will before God, never first in the external world." Every now and again, not often, but sometimes, God brings me to a point of climax. That is the great divide in the life; from that point I either go towards a more and more snaillike and useless type of Christian life, or I become more and more on fire for the glory of God.

Thank you for sharing your story Brent. My name is Dan, and I am always available to share God's Word in earnest discovery and discussion. I invite you to accept my friendship request and to fellowship with me as you please, and as God leads. May God richly bless you both here, and in the life surroundings God has set you in currently, where you live. :). Chow-4-Now!
 
Prov910

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Chicken_Brent said:
From the age of about 11 i had no more friends and spent up to 8 hours in front of the computer every day, playing videogames like World of Warcraft. It shouldnt be a surprise that its very easy for children or teenagers to get in contact with people who like to corrupt the youth and i suppose thats what happened.

I quickly got into pornography and developed a very unhealthy atheist world view. Started to have thoughts about how much i hated people, including myself, and often cursed my parents for their failure to supervise me. I got depressed and for times even considered suicide, was close to sending myself straight to hell.
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I think this is all to common today among teenagers. And I don't know that there will be a solution any time soon.

I think it's quite uncommon for someone to break out of that life, like you did. Godspeed to you in your Christian endeavors!

Oh, and welcome to CC!
 
Blain

Blain

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wow if this isn't a testimony that will shake peoples hearts to their core I don't what is, Brent I know you have had a long and horrible journey in life but believe me it was not for nothing. I can already tell that God is going to use your life's story to do amazing things and he will use you to become a very strong and powerful warrior. I can easily see you as a leader helping and guiding those in life who have struggled as you have
 
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mar09

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A beautiful share, brent, that brought tears to my eyes. Thank you.

"The word has had an incredible, life changing impact on me and continues to do so. I definitely intend to lead others to salvation in the future."

May God bless your heart and your intentions, the people around you more.
 
tourist

tourist

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Thanks for sharing your great testimony and it is also great that God is now in your life. Glad to have you join us. Welcome to CC.
 
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Adstar

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Chicken_Brent said:
Hello there.

Up to this point (a few months ago) ive never been taught the Gospel even though my Mom wouldve called herself "Christian" and used to pray. I guess shes the sort of person who, out of fear of hell, decided to act like it doesnt exist.

Christianity was always presented to me by uninterested atheist teachers in watered down versions. I quickly rejected it for those reasons.

Ive been a bit of a rascal from the moment i was placed in a public school, that place always felt like a prison. I got into fights almost daily and sent to the principals office every few weeks. Naturally public school bored me and all that resulted in a mediocre performance throughout my entire school life.

From the age of about 11 i had no more friends and spent up to 8 hours in front of the computer every day, playing videogames like World of Warcraft. It shouldnt be a surprise that its very easy for children or teenagers to get in contact with people who like to corrupt the youth and i suppose thats what happened.

I quickly got into pornography and developed a very unhealthy atheist world view. Started to have thoughts about how much i hated people, including myself, and often cursed my parents for their failure to supervise me. I got depressed and for times even considered suicide, was close to sending myself straight to hell.

Thankfully those feelings stopped when 2 years ago i met a person who warmed me up to Christianity.

Ive broken every single commandment throughout my life and when in early 2017 did something really horrible to that very person, something in myself just told me that i crossed a line.

I was shocked to realize that, when i talked to the person again, i was forgiven. That just blew my mind and up until this point wasnt even part of my own mindset.

Eventually, remaining in contact, said person led me to the Gospel and i received it. After that i at first doubted my salvation, thought my past actions were too awful or that i shouldve come to the Gospel myself, rather than hearing it from someone else. I quickly grew in Christ though and finally realized that those deeds are as far from me as the east is from the west.

So yea, ive turned from a depressed and suicidal animal with a human hating world view into a joyful person who often denies himself for God, reads the bible almost daily and goes to church every week.

The word has had an incredible, life changing impact on me and continues to do so. I definitely intend to lead others to salvation in the future.

Thanks for reading.
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Great to read your testimony Chicken_Brent.. :D

I became a Christian in my early 20's.. I did not have anywhere near as tumultuous life as you seemed to have experienced before coming to be saved.. I was that quiet, socially awkward kid that got bullied in my young years. But thanks be to God a Friend gave me a Bible to read in my early 20's and i read it. :) Totally changed my entire world view.. I am so glad that God is a God of loving mercy. :D
 
GOP

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Chicken_Brent said:
Hello there.

Up to this point (a few months ago) ive never been taught the Gospel even though my Mom wouldve called herself "Christian" and used to pray. I guess shes the sort of person who, out of fear of hell, decided to act like it doesnt exist.

Christianity was always presented to me by uninterested atheist teachers in watered down versions. I quickly rejected it for those reasons.

Ive been a bit of a rascal from the moment i was placed in a public school, that place always felt like a prison. I got into fights almost daily and sent to the principals office every few weeks. Naturally public school bored me and all that resulted in a mediocre performance throughout my entire school life.

From the age of about 11 i had no more friends and spent up to 8 hours in front of the computer every day, playing videogames like World of Warcraft. It shouldnt be a surprise that its very easy for children or teenagers to get in contact with people who like to corrupt the youth and i suppose thats what happened.

I quickly got into pornography and developed a very unhealthy atheist world view. Started to have thoughts about how much i hated people, including myself, and often cursed my parents for their failure to supervise me. I got depressed and for times even considered suicide, was close to sending myself straight to hell.

Thankfully those feelings stopped when 2 years ago i met a person who warmed me up to Christianity.

Ive broken every single commandment throughout my life and when in early 2017 did something really horrible to that very person, something in myself just told me that i crossed a line.

I was shocked to realize that, when i talked to the person again, i was forgiven. That just blew my mind and up until this point wasnt even part of my own mindset.

Eventually, remaining in contact, said person led me to the Gospel and i received it. After that i at first doubted my salvation, thought my past actions were too awful or that i shouldve come to the Gospel myself, rather than hearing it from someone else. I quickly grew in Christ though and finally realized that those deeds are as far from me as the east is from the west.

So yea, ive turned from a depressed and suicidal animal with a human hating world view into a joyful person who often denies himself for God, reads the bible almost daily and goes to church every week.

The word has had an incredible, life changing impact on me and continues to do so. I definitely intend to lead others to salvation in the future.

Thanks for reading.
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Wow! Thanks for sharing bro.
HOLY FATHER thank You for Your Great Mercy upon us in JESUS' NAME.
 
Corneliuss

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Great Testimony Praise be to the Lord for he is good.
 
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First, welcome to the family. Second, what a wonderful testimony. Many can relate to the "I'm not good enough for God" part and most of us have probably been there at times. Thank you for sharing your journey to, and now for, Christ.
 
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