Recent content by Shoshie

As I write this, I am in a Griefshare Group, am on medication for high anxiety, and to see a counselor next week. I'm having intrusional thoughts and in torment. I may not make it! Please pray for me!!! I'm in a very bad way!!!

I guess because He could have healed her and not let her suffer. She had already had so many losses and health problems. Why did she have to suffer so badly?

I have realized what my problem is, that I am angry with God about my Mom's death and suffering. I'm having trouble loving Him but I don't want to miss Heaven! Please pray for me!

Since my Mom died on Dec 2nd much has been a blur. To clarify some things, I read through my journals. I found a few times out of frustration over my Mother's health, I yelled at her. Once I thought she had a UTI so a bath was necessary. She liked a bath but didn't feel like it. I told her it...

Thank you!!! You can't imagine how much that comment meant!!! Shoshie

That's the name of my group. My first session (but their 5th) was on fear. CS Lewis said grief feels an awful lot like fear and it does! I think it's , at least in me, an emotion that just surfaces and can be paralyzing like when soneone hurts you and you feel wounded inside! Anyway, if you can...

Thank you, the words and lyrics meant an awful.lot!!! I am sleeping better. I went for a job interview today. It went really well. Should know something by the end of the week. Felt my Mom with me all day. Miss her very much, but bittersweet. After the interview, I wrnt somewhere we used to go...

Just wanted you to know, I did go to my group. It was a good but hard session. I felt raw with fear and pain, but so did others there. It's a Christian group so they also are looking to the same source. I had a job interview today. I think it went well. Shoukd know by the end of the week. Thank...

I appreciate everything you shared and I apologize sincerely if I have been in any way hurtful or insincere in response to you. Your experiences seem really traumatic. Sounds like the Lord is helping you to navigate through all of this with his strength. My struggles have been, I'm an only...

I couldn't find your former reply. I have difficulty navigating this sight. I wasn't trying to be testy a d I do appreciate anyone's help. But losing 2 parents in less than 6 months, no siblings. No grandparents, no spouse. It's a real lonely empty life. I can't just pick up a replacement for my...

So are you saying I just forget my Mom and go on!

As most of you know, my Mom passed away in December. I've had many days when I've felt tormented with grief or confused. Today, I feel numb and it's scaring me because I don't want to lose my feelings for her. I loved her so much!!! Please pray I get my feelings back!!!

I had a question and I wanted to express a comment as well. Has anyone been involved in a grief support group? Was it helpful to you? Next. Someone posted that we are not supposed to mourn as Christians when someone dies. I'm afraid I would have to disagree. The Bible says in Thessalonians that...

My problem is I don't even feel close to God sometimes. I worry am I showing Him I love Him less because I'm trying to feel something for my Mom? Am I not putting Him first? I'm truly afraid I'll lose my salvation or my mind or both!

Lousy! One of the worst days ever in that I can't feel today!!! Really bothers me!!! Makes .e feel I didn't love my Mom and I know that's not true!!!