AutumnBreeze
Growing up I always felt like my only way to God was through Jesus because God just didn't like me--Jesus had to "talk God down" from hating me.
And after years of struggling with anger, fear and embarrassment from childhood abuse, I decided to give up on God out of anger--thinking that God didn't really care, so I deserved to do whatever I wanted without being judged. And He let me--for 2 years.
Those 2 years were so dark. I had a plan and method all put together to end my life that I mulled over at least weekly. I told myself if things got bad enough, at least I had a way out.
Finally in July 2022 I got on my face and begged God to give me life. I wasn't ready to give up "my freedom", but I was tired of the darkness. And over the next 5 months, He slowly started sifting His truth back into my life.
And then January 14, 2023 as I was driving to work, Yeshua showed up BIG TIME. He told me, "I didn't die for you so that I could love you. I love you so much that I died for you." I had never in my life felt His love like He showed me in that moment--like my soul was absolutely overflowed with love and peace. I cried in my car for a full 30 minutes before wiping my tears and heading into work.
Before my hope was in death, but now it is in Him--who loved me and gave Himself for me--the Way, the Truth and the Life Himself!
And after years of struggling with anger, fear and embarrassment from childhood abuse, I decided to give up on God out of anger--thinking that God didn't really care, so I deserved to do whatever I wanted without being judged. And He let me--for 2 years.
Those 2 years were so dark. I had a plan and method all put together to end my life that I mulled over at least weekly. I told myself if things got bad enough, at least I had a way out.
Finally in July 2022 I got on my face and begged God to give me life. I wasn't ready to give up "my freedom", but I was tired of the darkness. And over the next 5 months, He slowly started sifting His truth back into my life.
And then January 14, 2023 as I was driving to work, Yeshua showed up BIG TIME. He told me, "I didn't die for you so that I could love you. I love you so much that I died for you." I had never in my life felt His love like He showed me in that moment--like my soul was absolutely overflowed with love and peace. I cried in my car for a full 30 minutes before wiping my tears and heading into work.
Before my hope was in death, but now it is in Him--who loved me and gave Himself for me--the Way, the Truth and the Life Himself!
- Birthday
- Oct 14, 1996 (Age: 28)
- Gender
- female
- Marital Status
- not married
- Spiritual Status
- Christian
- Church Status
- attending church
- When saved
- 2023
- Country Flag/Nationality
- Canada
- Country (Location)
- United States
- Favorite Bible Verse
- Ephesians 3:14-21 "For this reason I kneel before the Father, from whom every family in heaven and on earth is named. I pray that according to the wealth of his glory he will grant you to be strengthened with power through his Spirit in the inner person, that Christ will dwell in your hearts through faith, so that, because you have been rooted and grounded in love, you will be able to comprehend with all the saints what is the breadth and length and height and depth, and thus to know the love of Christ that surpasses knowledge, so that you will be filled up to all the fullness of God. Now to him who by the power that is working within us is able to do far beyond all that we ask or think, to him be the glory in the church and in Christ Jesus to all generations, forever and ever. Amen."
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