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  • enril
    still barely active, could be a year before I'm realyy back.

    I'd appreciate prayer as I struggle to let go of my grief for William.
    it still feels like he just left. and I still can't let go. I'm happy for him, but i grieve all the same.
    seoulsearch
    Mr. Dean's latest newsletter is fall-on-the-floor funny -- and mostly about an outhouse. 😂I got it in my email updates; not sure if it's posted to his site yet. Praying you are well and have a good Christmas! ✝️🎄❄️
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    I also got it in my email. it was typically good.
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    enril
    he ahs a website? But of course he does. all the better to see you with, my dear.
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    (lil rrh)
    enril
    Someone recently told me that I am 'sincere.' I'm not really sure how to feel.
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    In a world that's becoming more artificial every day, people are craving authenticity (sincerity) like a long-lost treasure. It's definitely a compliment!
    enril
    @seoulsearch what do you reccomend as a gift im giving between
    your heart is mine, the city, light of the moon, sole suvivor, the taking, mr murder, the face, the mask, innocent, and th vision?
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    seoulsearch
    seoulsearch
    I'm composing a list of my faves and they are all from around the early 1990's: Watchers (with the genius dog,) The Bad Place, Lightning, From the Corner of His Eye, and Twilight Eyes. This was back in the days when he really tried to give explanations for things... If you get any of the books "his dogs" wrote, they're short, sweet, and any animal lover will likely love them. 😊How have you been?
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    enril
    I've been good. I chose husband, mr murder, and taking.
    Ihaven't actually read most of them.
    enril
    enril
    I have been pretty good... ish.
    it's really hard, trying not to be a bother to everyone, but also trying to... I don't know. something.
    I'm doing better. I think. I really do think I have DID or something similar, personality compartmentalism, I'm not sure.sometimes I'm doing great, and swing straight down to darkness in seconds. so, mostly I'm confudsed a bit.
    enril
    Back for a moment. :)
    NF released his new album, fear, and it is incredible.
    worth a listen.
    enril
    I most likely will be inactive for a long while.
    Just lettin you know so you don't worry :)
    seoulsearch
    There are actually two Odd graphic novels... I've read them both. I was lucky to get my hands on them before the library phased them out. 😭I can't remember it if was in both, but I really liked how, in at least one, Mr. Dean explains at the end how he and the artist came to decisions on the look of the characters, etc. I love seeing the inner workings of creative minds. ❤️How have you been doing? 🙏
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    enril
    really?!? my library has them both... Odd....

    good. memories. kinda like a sea. ebbing andflowing.
    enril
    eat music though.

    Another 90s band, Deliverance. They had numerous albums, their earliest being speed metal until they changed sounds. But no screaming.

    Lacey Sturm. She sang on the first 2 Flyleaf albums, then went on to be a solo artist.

    That's a few to get you started. All Christian. If you also want secular recommendations just let me know.
    (just puttin this here for safekeeping)
    enril
    Hmm... I recently stumbled across a band called Seventh Day Slumber. There are screaming parts, but no death vocals. Album is called Fractured Paradise - Garden of Shadows.

    Old school band Bride recently released a double album, Vipers and Shadows.

    There was a 90s band called Stavesacre. They had two awesome albums. 'Friction' and 'Absolutes'.
    They are a bit on the heavier side, but no screaming or death vocals. Gr
    enril
    I have to admit, we are not really doing as well as I think We are.
    I have fallen back into the pitfall of sorrow and numbness, m-ion as a way to avoid the pain.and of course split personalitys don't help. it feels every few weeks, but could be every night, but we don't know. I'm so lost.
    "Know that I should relax, hate the way I react
    Thinking that I'm good, but you know I'm 'bout to relapse
    enril
    enril
    "Joy, when was the last time we had it?
    I don't remember 'cause all that we do
    Is go backwards but that's what you get
    When you live in the past
    And I know we breathing but we not alive
    Really, is this the way we wanna die?
    'Til you got everything bottled inside
    If only they knew what goes on in our minds
    enril
    enril
    "I feel lost in my mind
    Just another pain in my head
    I feel so broken inside
    With memories I'm tryna forget
    I don't feel like I used to
    Matter 'a fact not even close
    I don't feel right
    Yet I choose to
    To go to a place I don't know
    Maybe I'm crazy
    Maybe I'm not
    But I feel like I'm outta control
    And God, I need you
    Right now
    I never should've let you go
    Now I'm just so out of control
    enril
    enril
    I'm not... as stable as I thought.
    enril
    gosh, I don't recognize myself with the linux penguin instead of jack tbc
    enril
    enril
    better. mostly black color now.
    (yes, thats a disclaimer. it is sad that I have to do these things these dasys)
    seoulsearch
    I see you've experienced the "Koontz Effect" 😊. I've gone many hours with food, sleep, and bathroom breaks trying to finish his books! And yes. In his earlier career, he had to write more detailed things (demands from publishers) but he's said he finds it very boring to write about. I agree that now when he throws in a line or two about that, it's to further our knowledge of the characters.
    enril
    woah... whered I just go? I just lost myself for a minute or 3...
    seoulsearch
    seoulsearch
    What's been going on?!
    enril
    enril
    Short term chronic memory loss. like where you walk in the kitchen ad go... huh? wonder why I'm in here, but more often and worse. usually I start thinking and then realize that it's just been 6 minutes, or half an hour, but have no idae what I was thinking about. probably that I wouldn't remember any of it lol
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