sorry but I feel suicidal.
Of course. Satan wants you - all of us - dead.
If you want to keep your sickness, disease, etc. He will let you.
People who are focused on themselves and not outward end up like this.
If you want to keep throwing away your life on I,I,I, me, me, me, He will let you, if you want to be well stop your pity party , put on the big boys, and focus on serving others.
Demons of self-pity, self-loathing and others want you to remain trapped in that bondage loop.
True believers recognize that "fear/anxiety" is another demonic entity sent to torment us, knowing that "God hath not given us the spirit of fear; but of power, and of love, and of a sound mind" (2 Tim. 1:7). They rebuke that devil of fear whenever it rears its ugly head.
Who do you look to, in your moment of need?
The results of successful spiritual warfare will rock your world - for the better. Things change dramatically after you win your first battle.
Start singing songs about the blood of Jesus. Do a google search for "songs about the blood of Jesus". There's a long list of these.
Demons absolutly hate to hear such songs. and yes they do have ears. Eventually they will leave.
sing along if you can, otherwise just let them play
Now this is good.
"Depression" is a devil, the spirit of heaviness. The antidote is to put on "the garment of praise for the spirit of heaviness" (Isa. 61:3). The cure for "depression" is not a BigPharma antipsychotic drug; the cure is to start praising the Most High God:
The Spirit of the Lord God is upon me; because the Lord hath anointed me to preach good tidings unto the meek; he hath sent me to bind up the brokenhearted, to proclaim liberty to the captives, and the opening of the prison to them that are bound; To proclaim the acceptable year of the Lord, and the day of vengeance of our God; to comfort all that mourn; To appoint unto them that mourn in Zion, to give unto them beauty for ashes, the oil of joy for mourning,
the garment of praise for the spirit of heaviness; that they might be called trees of righteousness, the planting of the Lord, that he might be glorified.
Put on the garment of praise for the spirit of heaviness.
For the rest of us here:
There's a procedure to overcome evil spirits in our life. And the procedure is always the same. There are four steps needed to take place in order for people to get delivered. Most of these steps, particularly 3 and 4, people never do. Most people only do steps 1 and 2, they stop there and they never get free.
1. Acknowledge the actions that you partake in that support the nature of these evil spirits in your flesh.
For a believer, step 1 is the end because they're faithfully gonna go on to do steps 2, 3 and 4. Sometimes step 1 is the most difficult. Because you can't see demons, you need to pray to God to show you how they operate. It could be something very subtle e.g. everywhere you go, you can't stop tapping your foot. It could be something so subtle as a shift in body language when one walks into a bar or a weight training room (an overkill "tough guy" body stance). You're seeing an arrogant, violent "don't mess with me" demon. Even unbelievers can notice the evil spirits in you. They don't know they're demons, but they don't like that nature in you because they don't have it. That's what determines if people get along together or don't get along together. If his demons don't like your demons, you're not gonna get along with him. If his demons don't like your Holy Spirit, of course you're not gonna get along with him. This is what makes people come together in like minded fashion or not. This is why the Bible says we should be all of one mind and be in accordance with one another in our doctrine. That's why it's important to develop that core group mentioned earlier.
2. Truly repent of the behavior that you're doing.
You don't just go up to someone and say, "I repent, I'm a sinner, I don't like what I've been doing. I give it to God." And then you walk back out the door. That's not a complete repentance. A complete repentance is doing that, plus turning from the action and CONTINUING to turn from that action forever. In true repentance, one does not go back to sin. A true believer, when a sin is overcome, never returns to that sin. Is he sinless? No, he's not sinless, but he's now working on new sins or non-willful sins (i.e. a sin you're not yet aware of, or a sin that you're doing that you don't think is a sin. There is no sin that will overtake you, except those sins that are common to man e.g. road rage with its momentary manifestation of a demon. And God always leaves you a way out. It's why the Bible says to not let the sun go down on your anger, because believers do get angry, and they need to deal with it before they go to bed, else they give place to the devil, and that place is you because you allowed that devil to operate through you.) You can't be a believer and also be a willful sinner. Once you become aware that it's a sin, and you continue to do it, you're not a true believer.
When true repentance is practiced, your body is no longer a quality habitat for that demon. Demons are like animals. If you take a fish out of water, it can't thrive. If you put a lion in a cage, it can't thrive. Different demons thrive in different habitats. If you wanna be prideful, you're gonna have those spirits. Whatever you're willing to act out through your vessel is what you have now given as a habitat for a spirit. Of course, this works for the Holy Spirit, as well. If you're willing to do selfless acts of love, then you've now given your vessel as a habitat for the Holy Spirit. If you don't do that, then you don't have the level of Spirit, that double portion of God's power, that people who constantly yield their vessel have.
This works both ways. People think because I teach about demons, that I don't know about the Holy Ghost. I know about the Holy Ghost, but we're taught to wrestle against principalities. The Bible says we're not to be ignorant of Satan's devices, so somebody's gotta focus on revealing the wiles of Satan, teaching people how to resist the devil. And the people who don't wanna hear about this are not true believers either, because if you don't wanna fight the devil, then you're not a believer.
3. Strive daily for perfect resistance of the sinful tendencies.
4. Persist in resisting the sin until the stronghold is broken. (Most people never fight hard enough to make the devil tap out.)
Most people never partake in steps 3 and 4 and never get delivered.