Jesus wept.
There's nothing wrong with that.
I have, however been unusually emotional when the Clarksburg VA hospital forced my Dad to stay when he went for a check up. I scheduled an ambulance to transfer him. That's when they stabbed him through the lung. He died the morning I was getting him to safety.
I have been working towards opening a store that would allow me to personally minister to people's health needs.
My life savings went into it, but came up short when I underestimated the cost of inventory. It was going to be a refuge for healing through God given nutritional supplements and related products. Now I've been so stressed, sleepless, etc that I need that myself right now. My heart is to give to the poor, the elderly and those with disabilities, especially my brothers and sisters. I'm always asking for help to bless my Christian family.
9And let us not be weary in well doing: for in due season we shall reap, if we faint not.
10As we have therefore opportunity, let us do good unto all men, especially unto them who are of the household of faith.
I have to admit that I am weary...
I need to get back to a point where I can help others, but I am grateful to be alive.
You already know a portion of the sagga about my Mom this summer, that I posted on the prayer list.
Although I appreciate the good nurses and respiratory therapist, it has been more than a challenge.
I stayed positive for Mom, but the medical staff and from my half brother who poured more grief upon me over and over. I have been depressed and had no appetite for months, just eating to function. I had new symptoms of everything from diabetes to cancer. Sorry to be so self centered as I think about it.
I love the Lord with all my heart and wept today as I read His Word and prayed. I am slowly healing, but might lose everything at the end of the month because I forgot to pay last year's property tax while my Mom has needed help. I'll be weeping to our Lord each day.