Here's your problem, you have God doing both His and Satans job. He creates sinners, and leaves them in sin because that's what He likes to do. How can you hate a child before they are born? There is no where in the Bible that says God hated a person before they were born.
But God shows his love for us in that while we were still sinners, Christ died for us.
“For God so loved the world, that he gave his only Son, that whoever believes in him should not perish but have eternal life.
The Lord is not slow to fulfill his promise as some count slowness, but is patient toward you, not wishing that any should perish, but that all should reach repentance.
For while we were still weak, at the right time Christ died for the ungodly. For one will scarcely die for a righteous person—though perhaps for a good person one would dare even to die— but God shows his love for us in that while we were still sinners, Christ died for us.
And of some have compassion, making a difference:And others save with fear, pulling them out of the fire; hating even the garment spotted by the flesh.
For the Son of Man came to seek and to save the lost.”
And walk in love, as Christ loved us and gave himself up for us, a fragrant offering and sacrifice to God.
But in your hearts honor Christ the Lord as holy, always being prepared to make a defense to anyone who asks you for a reason for the hope that is in you; yet do it with gentleness and respect,
Anyone who does not love does not know God, because God is love. In this the love of God was made manifest among us, that God sent his only Son into the world, so that we might live through him.
And as they continued to ask him, he stood up and said to them, “Let him who is without sin among you be the first to throw a stone at her.”
Here is how a person can know they are in a cult, they talk of judgement, not love. They ignore the mercy of God, and why not, if you believe you are elect and elite in some way. The Word, right above where I posted, says God loves sinners, that He died for them and wishes none would perish. I see you say you were saved in 2021, in fact you were indoctrinated. God is a God of love, of mercy. The Bible says He is a good Father. Whoever indoctrinated you I do not know. But you are yet a babe in Christ with much to learn about who God really is.