I'm not sure where to post this but it seems I've lost faith in God the Bible humanity etc doubt I'll get it back or a cure.
tl:dr
fight for your faith
In my experience, your heart is probably asking
if God exists then where is He in your problems.
But just in case you have lost all faith indeed, God says ask and you will receive (Matthew 7:7). Try to ask Him to show you He is real, like others have done. Ask Him to help you with your unbelief.
Mark 9:23-25
“If You can?” echoed Jesus. “All things are possible to him who believes!”
Immediately the boy’s father cried out, “I do believe; help my unbelief!”
When Jesus saw that a crowd had come running, He rebuked the unclean spirit. “You deaf and mute spirit,” He said, “I command you to come out and never enter him again.”
Note how the man "cried out" which indicates, to me, that He asked
with all His heart
But I would say that satan is trying to have you. He is tormenting you and then asking you
where is God in all of this, and if you give up your faith, it would be because he poked and poked at you until he got the desired outcome,
which is your destruction. satan has many people he can do this through, sadly. Why is he picking on you? I don't know. But the answer to the question of
where is God could be
waiting for you to repent
1 Timothy 1:20 among whom are Hymenaeus and Alexander,
whom I have handed over to Satan that they may learn not to blaspheme.
Or Watching and
Rooting for you to overcome satan's machinations
Job 1:9-12
Satan answered the LORD, “Does Job fear God for nothing? Have You not placed a hedge on every side around him and his household and all that he owns? You have blessed the work of his hands, and his possessions have increased in the land. But stretch out Your
hand and strike all that he has, and he will surely curse You to Your face.”
“Very well,”
said the LORD to Satan. “Everything he has is in your hands, but you must not lay a hand on the man himself.”
Then Satan went out from the presence of the LORD.
Not talking down to you, because I am not perfect. How do we stand against satan when he is testing us?
Ephesians 6:10-17
Finally, be strong in the Lord and in His mighty power. Put on the
full armor of God,
so that you can make your stand against the devil’s schemes. For our struggle is not against flesh and blood, but against the rulers, against the authorities, against the powers of this world’s darkness, and against the spiritual forces of evil in the heavenly realms.
Therefore take up the full armor of God, so that when the day of evil comes, you will be able to stand your ground, and having done everything, to stand. Stand firm then, with the belt of truth buckled around your waist, with the breastplate of righteousness arrayed, and with your feet fitted with the readiness of the gospel of peace.
In addition to all this, take up
the shield of faith, with which you
can extinguish all the flaming arrows of the evil one. And take the helmet of salvation and the sword of the Spirit, which is the word of God.