Yep people are a mess. Christians have differing views on different subjects.
Yet we are one in believing the essentials. The ABC's.
This is important because many sects etc call themselves Christian yet, it is plain that they are not. Ie, Mormons, Jehovah witness etc.
If you are looking for the perfect human who is not messy set your gaze upon Jesus. Church is messy because its full of messy and broken people..but these are being renewed day by day.
They have an eternal hope.. That one day when Jesus returns again, all will be made anew. No more messiness, confusion, pain, tears, evil and sin.
The question for you Katia is, where is your hope placed and in whom. May you find your rest in our Lord and saviour.
For the wages of sin is death, but the gift of God is eternal life in Christ Jesus our Lord. Rom 6:23.