First off, I'm very sorry to hear about your divorce.
And, at the risk of not sounding sensitive, I will say this. When I first read your post, the very first thing that came to mind was this : "I hope that not everything has been lost, because that would mean that you no longer had Jesus ."
I am truly sorry to hear that your marriage is no longer, I would not like to know what that feels like. May you find Grace in Our Lord and Savior and King, Jesus, as well as Comfort, Peace and Joy.
Welcome to Christian Chat. May your time here be both fun and fruitful🙂.