I have email but got rid of all my social media its part of what messed me up
I'll say this cautiously and publicly for your own protection...not that you're really in any danger.
Since our paths first crossed here, I've strongly felt that God wants me to help you in some manner.
To be totally honest, you are the reason that I was asking all of those questions about private messaging.
Seeing how I'm a male (a very devout Christian, God-fearing male who would never harm anybody) and you're a female, I felt a little bit uncomfortable contacting you without your permission because, let's face it, there are a lot of predators online, and you simply need to be safe.
That said, if you honestly feel safe in talking to me privately, then I'm sure we could easily figure out how to do that.
I can assure you that I'll be respectful and godly in any interactions we might have.
As truly important as it is to be cautious, at the same time, I'd hate to be in a position to help someone in a godly manner and let fear keep me from doing it.
Anyhow, just throwing this out there for you to consider, and doing it publicly so others can know about it for your own safety...even though I'm a zero percent chance of harming you in any manner.
I honestly feel that God wants me to help you.