Your interpretation is not Scripture. Get that through your head.
I stand firm in my interpretations. Along with many great teachers of their day, who saw the same Biblical Truths as I have over 30 years of Biblical study. Men like Albert Barnes, John Gill, Arthur W. Pink, Charles Spurgeon, W. E. Best, etc.... While we may not agree on every point of Scripture, we stand together in general accord. These men taught and wrote between the 1700's up too the 2000's.
If I can't get it through my head, they obviously couldn't either. They and I are on the same wave link - frim in the defense of God's Truth as presented in Scripture.
One should not learn solely from other men or churches but one will flock together when that one hears what is being taught as the voice of the Lord. (John 10:4,5). I don't know what voice you are listening too but I fear it is not the right one. This saddens me.