I find this is to be utterance. I teach people from all ethnicities. I have had more students I can count, I have been working with disabled people both voluntarily and as a profession, I have travelled and seen people. And I always see beauty in every single one of them. Their behavior can be annoying, and I can pity those that are less attractive due to disability, illness, birth defects, bad habits or care for their looks, but never ever have I wound their looks to be annoying or plain ugly.
I pray for you, sis, that you will be able to love and accept the people around you.