I haven't been good company lately due to a little depression that sets in occasionally. Yesterday I was feeling a bit knackered but perhaps that's not an altogether bad thing. Kinda in a reflective state of mind today but that's not an altogether bad thing either. Maybe one day I will go on the beach but not today.
I often get like that too. It’s several months since I last had a day off all to myself with no pressure to hurray home or be at work.
So today I decided I just needed a me day all for me. I didn’t plan it exactly I got up this morning for work as usual. Got showered, made my aunts breakfast, changed her bed, sorted out her meds for the day, made her a packed lunch, had my breakfast.
Then I was just waiting for the carer to arrive before I went to work so I could give the carer some last minute instructions. I just thought to myself “I’m so tired so out of sorts I really don’t want to be in work today”.
I couldn’t shake off the thought. So I rang in work and asked if I could have the day off. My work is up to date so they said yes. Yippee. So then I just left shortly after the carer arrived.
I didn’t say I wasn’t going to work, didn’t say anything. Saw no reason to say anything,
So I took myself off to the cinema popcorn, tall lemonade etc.
Then went for a leisurely lunch in a nice cafe. Had a stroll around the shop. Then got a massive piece of cake and a coffee. (I do drink coffee when I’m out).
Even the sun came out it was forecast breezy and rain. It started off overcast but as soon as I set off the sun came out and it’s been wall to wall blue skies. Lol
Sometimes you just need to step back a bit. It was my Elijah moment.