Going out on a limb here, but I thinks you are under a lot of conviction about not having the walk to match the talk. If that's the case, you can change that and find peace and have no fear of the judgement that's coming to separate those who really do belong to Christ from those who don't. Breathe on our arm. If it feels warm there's still hope. It's after we die that we lose all chances to repent and make certain we belong to Christ through faith. I know this is not PC for a lot of people in and out of the church but it's the truth that can save a person.