Believe me...........I KNOW EXACTLY what you are going through and how depressing it can be!
Not to lessen your trials, but I would add that ONE BLESSING you do have is that you have a loving husband and life partner to lean on and stand together with through the trials, as well as the Lord Himself.
I sometimes wonder if the trials that beset me would be easier handled if I had someone, but, then I think, well maybe not, because it would put so much of a burden on them.........in the end........my FIRST assurance is God Himself! I can not even begin to tell all He has done for me in the last 14 months...........and, I also have some family members who have lovingly helped me in the worst of the trials.
Truthfully though, I am such a loner, that I often do not reach out/seek assistance from others......I rely on God and try to insulate others from the actual trials I face on a daily basis. Just the old Soldier in me..........
Hard headed, stubborn, but completely trusting in God.
Love ya