Th0mas, I still don't know if you sincerely believe in your own hyper-spirituality or if you are so emotionally damaged that you are compelled to demonstrate your foolishness in front of so many strangers.
In either case, you are not in full touch with reality and really need to seek help.
If you really believe you are doing God's will with all your non-sense posting, then you are severely deceived and need professional help. What is happening in your brain is not from God.
But I know that God loves you and can work with you where you are. Trust Him to love you through this and lead you to be a happy healthy man who truly does bring honor and joy to Him.
Take some time and sincerely pray that He will help you understand the truth about yourself and get the help you need to better reflect Him to the world around you.
On the other hand, if all this is a game to you, I really am curious about the person you really are. Is your life really so unhappy that acting like this brings you pleasure? If so, PM me and lets talk. I will not disrespect your confidentiality.
Thanks.