Streams of Consciousness & Thoughts~~~

[Theygaveutheirworst]

^Made me think of the show CatDog.

 

[Jullianna]

Someone showed up out of the blue at my door and gave me a handmade dagger as a thank you gift. It's gorgeous. Lightweight. Feels great across the palm. Looking forward to working with it.

 

[Jullianna]

Something a lady told me last week is kind of hitting hard with me...

Last week, I was really having a hard time, I was missing Mom really bad. She asked how I was doing and I said, I was okay. She asked me 3-5 times, "Are you sure?" and I finally said, "Maybe, not really." and she lovingly said, that she understands that I don't have to share everything with everyone, but with some people, it shouldn't take 5 times for them to ask me if I'm really okay for me to tell the truth...

Ouch. That left a bruise.

But it's like...I'm so used to just giving this automatic answer I don't even think twice about it, and it's hard for me to switch it off, or if I realize that I do need to and let my guard down at least a little...ouch. That's even more painful. Earlier in the year I was determined I'd try and start being honest, and start trusting people again. Somehow, in the chaos, it all got away from me.

It IS tough, isn't it? To open up. I tried it recently. Didn't go well at all.

But know that people do care about you a lot, Lil, and remember you in their prayers.

I'm not very good at the mushy stuff, but dumping my thoughts in writing as you have here is helpful. I hope it is for you as well.

 

[Roh_Chris]

Someone showed up out of the blue at my door and gave me a handmade dagger as a thank you gift. It's gorgeous. Lightweight. Feels great across the palm. Looking forward to working with it.

Looking forward to working with a dagger? O_O

(Can't post the sentence here because I'm not sure if bada$$ is permitted on CC or not.)

 

[Roh_Chris]

Lately I've been experiencing spells of 'hyperactivity'. I feel like I can't sit still in a place. I have to run around. My work demands me to stay focussed for long hours on completing each activity. I end up jumping from one activity to another and then to another and then coming back to the first one. I am finding it difficult to concentrate on one thing. There is no problem with my productivity because I finish everything well before time. But I am unable to stay focussed on one thing. I also experience spells of 'mania' when I'm really happy and excited.

I don't know if it's just my personality or if it's a disorder. One friend recommended yoga but it is forbidden by my church.

 

[zeroturbulence]

Lately I've been experiencing spells of 'hyperactivity'. I feel like I can't sit still in a place. I have to run around. My work demands me to stay focussed for long hours on completing each activity. I end up jumping from one activity to another and then to another and then coming back to the first one. I am finding it difficult to concentrate on one thing. There is no problem with my productivity because I finish everything well before time. But I am unable to stay focussed on one thing. I also experience spells of 'mania' when I'm really happy and excited.

I don't know if it's just my personality or if it's a disorder. One friend recommended yoga but it is forbidden by my church.

I found that endurance exercise like running, jogging, walking, etc.. helps with mental focus, especially when you have to stay focused for long periods of time. Just take it easy at first if you haven't done any running or swimming. You don't want to end up with sore muscles.

 

[didymos]

No pain no gain, I say.

 

[kenthomas27]

I honestly thought it said BIKE, not bible. Also, I can't read minds and tell when someone is heartbroken.

That's ok ZT, we love ya.....come here and let me read to you from bike.

 

[cinder]

Someone showed up out of the blue at my door and gave me a handmade dagger as a thank you gift. It's gorgeous. Lightweight. Feels great across the palm. Looking forward to working with it.

People showing up unexpectedly and thrusting weapons at you is not usually a cause for celebration. I'm glad it worked out in your case, though I'll be keeping my distance until you are no longer …. hmm what's the equivalent for trigger happy when you are talking about pointy metal weapons…. slash happy. Yeah we'll go with that.

 

[Pipp]

Baked a cake last night but i don't like the way it looks so I'm baking another today...blah... I'd rather be lazy on my day off. ..but being lazy doesn't sell the cakes...

 

[Roh_Chris]

I found that endurance exercise like running, jogging, walking, etc.. helps with mental focus, especially when you have to stay focused for long periods of time. Just take it easy at first if you haven't done any running or swimming. You don't want to end up with sore muscles.

Thank you foe suggesting.

Let me try and see how this helps me. Will regular gymming be enough?

 

[zeroturbulence]

Thank you foe suggesting.

Let me try and see how this helps me. Will regular gymming be enough?

Yes as long as you do enough work up a sweat. The endurance exercises improve your circulation by raising your heart rate. Improved circulation helps a lot with focus and endurance. You'll feel more focused and relaxed in general and its good for your heart and blood presssure too.

 

[CatHerder]

Baked a cake last night but i don't like the way it looks so I'm baking another today...blah... I'd rather be lazy on my day off. ..but being lazy doesn't sell the cakes...

I'd be happy to take any cake "failures" and prototypes off your hands!!

 

[Jullianna]

Disclaimer:

Ideally, I would like this to be a place to write down your thoughts, and 'like' posts. And not be a conversation thread. But I realize, I can't prevent derails. People talk.

Looking forward to working with a dagger? O_O

(Can't post the sentence here because I'm not sure if bada$$ is permitted on CC or not.)

People showing up unexpectedly and thrusting weapons at you is not usually a cause for celebration. I'm glad it worked out in your case, though I'll be keeping my distance until you are no longer …. hmm what's the equivalent for trigger happy when you are talking about pointy metal weapons…. slash happy. Yeah we'll go with that.

arwen, I apologize for violating your request, but I literally laughed out loud at these responses!!!

I probably should have defined "working with it". Rest assured that I consider any weaponry I may or may not own to be for defensive purposes only.

 

[zeroturbulence]

arwen, I apologize for violating your request, but I literally laughed out loud at these responses!!!

Don't sweat it Ms. J.. That disclaimer was overruled by article 3.5, section 1A of the Streams and Consciousness Code of Conduct, which hereby states..

"All previous rules pertaining to the adherence of members to strictly non-conversational matters have therein been revoked and from thence forth all matters discussed within the Streams thread may be of the type designated as 'whatever'."

(of course I just made all that up, but its still ok to make replies to other posts here, I think.)

 

[Charcoal]

Yeah, yall can totally not read this, it's ok. I don't care, I'm posting it anyway.

So, I kinda get the feeling that when she texted me back saying, "You make me so incredibly happy " that she is ready for me to say that I love her. Honestly, as much as I look forward to doing this, it's uber scary for me. I guess it should be, right? I mean, it feels right, but its my suspicion that because everything seems so perfect that I would have much regret if I messed things up by moving too fast. I want to wait and not rush anything. Anything. I also want her to know how much those words mean when I say them. It's not like this is a first relationship for either of us. Choosing to move slow. I really think it's the best thing in the long run.

 

[lil_christian]

Okay, guys. Verdict's in, I'm fine. It was food allergy related. Surprise, surprise. I should be feeling better soon.

 

[zeroturbulence]

Yeah, yall can totally not read this, it's ok. I don't care, I'm posting it anyway.

So, I kinda get the feeling that when she texted me back saying, "You make me so incredibly happy " that she is ready for me to say that I love her. Honestly, as much as I look forward to doing this, it's uber scary for me. I guess it should be, right? I mean, it feels right, but its my suspicion that because everything seems so perfect that I would have much regret if I messed things up by moving too fast. I want to wait and not rush anything. Anything. I also want her to know how much those words mean when I say them. It's not like this is a first relationship for either of us. Choosing to move slow. I really think it's the best thing in the long run.

I think this would be a great thread (a.k.a., When is it ok to say i love you?). In my opinion it sounds like you might still have some reservations about committing (besides just the fear of committing). There's always a 'window' where its not too late and not too early to commit, but if you still have doubts then its probably still too early.

Sometimes one has reservations about it because of something they see in themselves too, not always just something about the other person. Its definitely a head scratcher. It could also be that maybe you two havent been through enough enough experiences for you to know enough about how she would handle things. Just my thoughts...

 

[rachelsedge]

TLC has canceled "Here Comes Honey Boo Boo".

And, this just in: Exactly no one is disappointed or outraged.

 

[kenthomas27]

TLC has canceled "Here Comes Honey Boo Boo".

And, this just in: Exactly no one is disappointed or outraged.

I tell ya wut dem dere jukey juice kin takeit to ware itdon shine iswut n betr beleveit.

Translated and captioned -

We hope the executive team at TLC would reconsider their decision.