I left my church after 14 months. Let's just say I will need a whole lot of healing after that messiness.
My friend from another church has taken me under her wing and has tried to get me involved in the young adult night services and has invited me to get to know other Christians my age. She is insistent on playing match maker and sees my singleness as her own personal mission to overcome (I've had to gently tell her that God should handle this one). This is all well and good, she's gone out of her way to help me feel at home and appreciated and loved, and I love her dearly for this, but I don't know... right now, there's nothing more I want than to sit with mature aged women who love God and to just simply talk, and will let me listen.
I just want to hear stories. I just want to take it in and look through someone else's eyes for a little while. I want to learn. I want to be encouraged by someone else's life stories, I want to appreciate someone else's second hand life lessons and take them on board.
I am saddened when I come across posts by women anywhere from 40 years - 80 years of age, and there seems to be this cry out that they feel useless, or undervalued, or that they are unable to give anything of good worth (Not every woman in this age bracket, but I've come across a few to notice a pattern happening). To those women, I wish you were close to me, I wish I could sit down and have coffee with you, I wish I could hear your stories and see your eyes light up when you tell them to me. There are people out there who need you, and I am one of them. You have so much to give.