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I made a post days ago about my struggle and what I went through...
But I think I found out what happened. I think I lost my salvation, my walk, my relationship with God. It's such a scary process I'm going through. I seem to no longer have any conviction of sin as I did, I seem to feel so deeply empty morning after morning, night after night. My prayers are dull. I have committed immoral sins that I have had a problem with for years, and its like God just gave up on me. Now I'm trying to repent as much as I can from all sins, even the immoral ones because I'm nearly scared to death if I really lost it all. I have prayed day and night for the security of my salvation, I'm still fearful. Now you might say since I fear I didn't lost the Holy Spirit. Can that be true? Feelings can be human, but I feel like a Saul who disobeyed God to the point of losing it all, and he was fearful was he not? I truly don't know if I lost it, but even if I did, I wish I could have another chance. I use to always pray that God would keep me no matter what, because I feared this exact thing. Praying that pray for years.
What do I do? I been repenting for days, I seem so dead, yet afraid.
But I think I found out what happened. I think I lost my salvation, my walk, my relationship with God. It's such a scary process I'm going through. I seem to no longer have any conviction of sin as I did, I seem to feel so deeply empty morning after morning, night after night. My prayers are dull. I have committed immoral sins that I have had a problem with for years, and its like God just gave up on me. Now I'm trying to repent as much as I can from all sins, even the immoral ones because I'm nearly scared to death if I really lost it all. I have prayed day and night for the security of my salvation, I'm still fearful. Now you might say since I fear I didn't lost the Holy Spirit. Can that be true? Feelings can be human, but I feel like a Saul who disobeyed God to the point of losing it all, and he was fearful was he not? I truly don't know if I lost it, but even if I did, I wish I could have another chance. I use to always pray that God would keep me no matter what, because I feared this exact thing. Praying that pray for years.
What do I do? I been repenting for days, I seem so dead, yet afraid.