Streams of Consciousness & Thoughts~~~

[lil_christian]

Hey you talkin' about me again?

(Inside joke for those who are scratching their heads.)

Yeppers I sure am. Deal widdit. LOL

 

[MissCris]

There's a nasty storm a-brewin'.

I want to be all mystical and cool and say that I can just feel it, but honestly it's just that I was outside a few minutes ago and the wind was coming from three different directions. Oh, and the sky is pretty dark gray.

I like storms. Not tornadoes. Those give me nightmares, and I've never even seen one.

I think I'll eat ice cream for dinner...it's safer that way.

 

[MissCris]

How awesome would it be if people who cause this zombie thread syndrome got BANNED...? After like, 3 threads, maybe. Yeah, this is obnoxious. *sigh*

 

[Markum1972]

I am really glad that CC has told me that I am on the right path. I mean God said it, but now that CC told me, all is well. Whew.

 

[lil_christian]

I liked it when CC told me I was a truth seeker. Because that's exactly what I am.

 

[JJAC]

Lord where do you want me?

 

[Powemm]

What a great evening!!Felt good to get out and drive the countryside.. had so much fun at dinner with my son and Hos girlfriend .. Laughed and carried on and she fits right in with our sense of Humor .. I asked the waiter if I could speak to his manager, His mouth dropped and began to stutter ..Ma
Ma
Ma my manager? I said "yes sir , I'd like to speak with your manager, and may o have your name? "Cain" he answered .. Je asked "is everything allright ma'am?".. I replied "oh!! Absolutely! , I just wanted to share with him what awesome looks
like.." his expression was a surprised look.. I looked at Him and smiled.. His manager came out and asked how the evening was going .. I said " well I'm not sure of your aware or not but that young man "Cain"? Well I want to tell you something about him.." he looked a little confused .. And answered "absolutely please share" ... I said " well I've eaten at a lot of restraunts and never have I seen a waiter with a plate tray full of food , heading over to serve another table stop in Hos tracks and catch another waiter about to pour water into a sprite glass.. "he gently said uh uh! Sprite! Said thank you, then web full blast to the other table to serve them.. Dude! That was awesome!!! It was a really really fun night .. Love being with my boys .. How did I get so lucky????? thanked God all the way home..

 

[AsifinPassing]

I think...I'm going to find a way to make my future proposal (should I ever have a partner I wish to marry)...a mixture of romantic/intimate with theatrical/entertaining. I honestly just envisioned this big music and dance number I sang/led in my proposal to her...and then even having a video of it...

It was along the lines of Bruno Mars - Marry You song...if nothing but a passing fancy...I still liked it. You know, the promise of new and fun are very strong appeals to me. For instance:

Isaac's Live Lip-Dub Proposal on Vimeo

25 Awesome Wedding Proposals - YouTube

JK Wedding Entrance Dance - YouTube

I love these...

 

[Iluv_Jesus]

I woke up this morning kinda sad & a bit upset with myself. I find myself feeling emotional a lot lately when thinking about my Mom...guilty for the fact that I even miss her & feel sad. It's that stupid "christian guilt" where I feel like I have no right to mourn the loss of her. In a few months she will have been gone a year. I still can't wrap my head around it. So pointless! I'm not mad at God,but sometimes I really hate the way he's structured things. Why is everything so fleeting? Nothing to hold on to...nothing but his word.
Ha! Here I am being even hypocritical...I tell other CC Member's "hang in there...God's got yer' back" yup...do I take my own preaching? I guess I just feel a bit short changed because her death happened so quick. So much more I wish I could have said. I don't think I'll ever feel satisfied with our last conversation. I know she tried so hard to be coherent,but by the end of the convo,I could tell I was losing her & this would be the last time I'd ever hear her voice. All I still ever think is what a disappointment my life turned out to be for her. I can only imagine what God must feel. I'm sure I let him down in worse ways. So I sit & reflect on Mother's Day coming soon & think of all the stupid cards & silly things I got my Mom over the years. How she never wanted roses..she loved carnations,because they lasted longer & were prettier. I think she was just trying to save me money....ha. Maybe I'll go back to bed & hide today. The sun is shinning but that makes me angry. I wish it would rain...hard & be overcast. It's easier to justify sleeping the day away if the weather is gloomy. People are so bizzare...why do we enjoy feeling like poo? I suppose like everything else,this sadness too shall pass...I just wish it would pass quicker.

Well. I know what it's like to lose someone you love dearly and want that someone to love you in return. To always prove to that someone that you're better than what you are. I know to lose someone is hard and each of us deal with that pain differently. The brokenness and the worst part where you can't expect someone to understand or tell people how you really feel. In such times, you feel let down. Have faith in God and He will lead you through such difficult times of life. God understands. And don't worry. Your mother's love would always be there with you. God understands and He is a God of the living, not of the dead.

[SUP]18 [/SUP]Then the Sadducees, who say there is no resurrection, came to him with a question. [SUP]19 [/SUP]“Teacher,” they said, “Moses wrote for us that if a man’s brother dies and leaves a wife but no children, the man must marry the widow and raise up offspring for his brother. [SUP]20 [/SUP]Now there were seven brothers. The first one married and died without leaving any children. [SUP]21 [/SUP]The second one married the widow, but he also died, leaving no child. It was the same with the third. [SUP]22 [/SUP]In fact, none of the seven left any children. Last of all, the woman died too. [SUP]23 [/SUP]At the resurrection[SUP][c][/SUP] whose wife will she be, since the seven were married to her?”
[SUP]24 [/SUP]Jesus replied, “Are you not in error because you do not know the Scriptures or the power of God? [SUP]25 [/SUP]When the dead rise, they will neither marry nor be given in marriage; they will be like the angels in heaven. [SUP]26 [/SUP]Now about the dead rising—have you not read in the Book of Moses, in the account of the burning bush, how God said to him, ‘I am the God of Abraham, the God of Isaac, and the God of Jacob’[SUP][d][/SUP]? [SUP]27 [/SUP]He is not the God of the dead, but of the living. You are badly mistaken!” Mark chapter 12 verses 18 - 27

I will pray for you brother

 

[Ugly]

Catlynn is the thorn in my side today.
Not that i needed it.

 

[Ugly]

This song just came on. I haven't heard it in a long time, but the lyrics hit me..

I go to bed with sounds
Of gun shots in my head
Wake, buy the paper
Read the names of the dead
The thought creeps in my mind
How long will it be until
They come kick my door in
And its me they want to kill
Some go out and buy a gun
Some try to move away
It don't matter where I go
I'm gonna die someday
It seems today
The simple solution
To the problems
That we face
Is to pull a knife, load a gun
And put people in their place
The national anthem
Has been changed
In the land of the insecure
Home of the brave
Becomes home of the slave
As we're locked in by our fears
Maybe tomorrow will be the day
I'm the one to die
But I will not hide paranoid
And watch my life go by
Fear was made to warn us
To teach you when to run
But if you really want to live
It must be overcome

~crashdog~

 

[JJAC]

Surprised at a friend

 

[Iluv_Jesus]

itores post got me thinking about my own mother. She died when i was 21. She contracted Hepatitis C from her job at a crack town police department in the early 80's, before AIDS and Hep C were well known. Getting stuck with dirty drug needles was common back then in police work, but there wasn't much danger from it before AIDS/Hep C. She worked in the evidence department and was stuck all the time with the used needles.
My parents spent a year or two in North Carolina (we lived in S FL at the time). I was a depressed mess, who had done nothing with my life, and had no plans to. Working dead end job, and engaged to a person my parents didn't agree with (and rightly so). I got the call from my sister at work. Mom had died. Even worse, they were still in NC. She had died in a hospital. Earlier that day, my parents had decided on the retirement house they wanted to live in. Finally had picked one out after months of looking. By the end of the night she was gone. Suddenly got really sick. She was waiting for a lung/liver transplant because of the Hep C. Insurance was dragging their feet, and it cost her her life.
So now, i feel like the last thoughts my mom must have had about me is what a disappointment i was. I'm usually able to block it out and not dwell, but as with any thoughts, they surface from time to time. Even worse, over 20 years later, now i'm worried about my father dying, he's 80. Still going strong, but old age is old age, no matter what. His mortality is now something to deal with. No longer 21, now 37 and i fear facing the same feelings with him. That his last thoughts of me will be the same as my mothers must have been. Since my life is not really any better than it was back then. I'm not much better. What a horrible feeling, facing that in the past, and seeing it come in the future.

Don't feel let down by what has happened in your life. I know life is very hard and I have had a very troublesome life too. Jesus is there. He knows and always have hope in Him. Faith in Jesus is rewarded with success in one's life. Let me share with you this Bible passage.

[SUP]16[/SUP] And, behold, one came and said unto him, Good Master, what good thing shall I do, that I may have eternal life?
[SUP]17[/SUP] And he said unto him, Why callest thou me good? there is none good but one, that is, God: but if thou wilt enter into life, keep the commandments.
[SUP]18[/SUP] He saith unto him, Which? Jesus said, Thou shalt do no murder, Thou shalt not commit adultery, Thou shalt not steal, Thou shalt not bear false witness,
[SUP]19[/SUP] Honour thy father and thy mother: and, Thou shalt love thy neighbour as thyself.
[SUP]20[/SUP] The young man saith unto him, All these things have I kept from my youth up: what lack I yet?
[SUP]21[/SUP] Jesus said unto him, If thou wilt be perfect, go and sell that thou hast, and give to the poor, and thou shalt have treasure in heaven: and come and follow me.
[SUP]22[/SUP] But when the young man heard that saying, he went away sorrowful: for he had great possessions.
[SUP]23[/SUP] Then said Jesus unto his disciples, Verily I say unto you, That a rich man shall hardly enter into the kingdom of heaven.
[SUP]24[/SUP] And again I say unto you, It is easier for a camel to go through the eye of a needle, than for a rich man to enter into the kingdom of God.
[SUP]25[/SUP] When his disciples heard it, they were exceedingly amazed, saying, Who then can be saved?
[SUP]26[/SUP] But Jesus beheld them, and said unto them, With men this is impossible; but with God all things are possible.

Nothing is impossible with God. Pray to Him and ask Him what you need. God will provide for you. Don't worry about the past for you cannot change it. The future you can change if you work in the present. God bless

 

[lil_christian]

Gonna see a concert today. Super excited!!! I think my social life is finally reviving itself again!!!

 

[shawntc]

Last year was a time of spiritual regression for me. As the youth group I had been part of for three years began to fall apart, my main mode of association with the church I was attending likewise broke apart. Most of the people in the church were older by many years and I didn't have much in common with them. I was at the age where I could fit in either the teen/young adult youth group or the adult group. There were maybe three adults whose ages were within ten years of mine, and then after them there was easily a 20-25+ year age difference. I didn't fit in the church, I didn't have a role, and there was no possibility of me ever doing anything in it.

This meant my walk in faith became ever more solitary. And walking alone is never conducive. The end result is that while I didn't leave God or Christianity, I did backslide a bit. I'm still in the process of recovering. One of the things that worried me was, had the Holy Spirit left me? Coming from a Pentecostal background I was taught that the Holy Spirit was a fluid, dynamic personality, giving gifts and faith as he saw fit. Whether you had the Holy Spirit and how much depended on both divine will and your cooperation with it. I noticed that I didn't have quite the enthusiasm or will to follow God as I had in the past and I worried that the Holy Spirit was no longer in me because of my sins.

When I asked a member here on CC about it, she reassured me that if I believed that God was real and that Jesus was resurrected, etc., then I did have the Holy Spirit. Of course I believe these things. I've devoted over five years of my life to this. Did I still have the Spirit? Yes.

A couple months ago I came across Ephesians 1:13-14: "In Him, you also, after listening to the message of truth, the gospel of your salvation—having also believed, you were sealed in Him with the Holy Spirit of promise, who is given as a pledge of our inheritance, with a view to the redemption of God’s own possession, to the praise of His glory." This in conjunction with my recent move to Lutheranism showed me something profound and comforting: I can't do anything that is so "bad," be so unfaithful, that the Holy Spirit would leave me. It doesn't work like that. The Holy Spirit remains in me when I'm a bold Christian, and when I barely act like it. The Spirit is the seal of my salvation, the means by which I am in Christ, and the sign that there is no condemnation upon me. God is very forgiving and gracious toward me, and I am awestruck by that.

 

[MissCris]

"To you, O Lord, I lift up my soul; in you I trust, O my God. Do not let me be put to shame, nor let my enemies triumph over me. No one whose hope is in you will ever be put to shame, but they will be put to shame who are treacherous without excuse. Show me your ways, O Lord, teach me your paths; guide me in your truth and teach me, for you are God my Savior, and my hope is in you all day long. Remember, O Lord, your great mercy and love, for they are from of old. Remember not the sins of my youth and my rebellious ways; according to your love remember me, for you are good, O Lord."-Psalm 25:1-7

 

[Powemm]

Spirit man "muscle excercise"
I am posting this only because of how impacted I was by what's going on spiritually and how important our discernment is ..
I did this excercise in a class .. The entire groups mouths dropped when we completed it ..I was absolutely stunned!

Requires a pencil and paper ...and your time ..,if your just going to read through it, don't bother going any further .. this is for someone who really wants to look at something inside themselves and around them ..

Draw two circles, about the diameter of a tennis ball
Like this. O O
Inside the circle on the ( left ) write "everything" you know God too be. Everything!

Now in the circle on the right, write out " all " you are struggling with in your life right now.
Ex.. words abuse rejection ...


When done, draw a person "using the circle" on the left ..
Write God above it
God
O

now using the circle on the right, draw a lions head "facing" the person .. Draw a tail and feet or however animated you want to make him ..

Write the word "World" above that circle .,

Now sit back and take a look at your picture for a minute ..

take your attention the circle on the left .. This o's everything God has made you from .. This o's what is the truth about what is inside you.. This is where our belief system should be full time ..... " This" is who you are..
The enemy cones to kill steal and destroy.. He roams about like a roaring lion "seeking" whom he can devour..
what does he have of yours "right now ?"

If he has anything it is because of a false belief of who you really are..

 

[Powemm]

Just in case ... The post above was a thought .. To share a tool.. for anyone who might want to use it .. Not imposed on the thread for any comments or even a " like ".. I prefer there be none .. Something for anyone getting alone in their time with God .. To simply see what if anything needs to be handed back to Him

 

[lil_christian]

I'll praise You in the storm, and I will lift my hands, because of Who You are, no matter where I am. With every tear I cry, that you hold in Your hand, You've never left my side, and though my heart is torn, I'll praise You in the storm.

Without You, I'm falling apart.

Hold my heart.

 

[Markum1972]

I wonder if people here think I am different in person. I wonder if they realize that I am just as bold face to face about the things of God as I am online. I guess it doesn't really matter but it makes me wish that maybe I could meet some people in person.
Why is this important to me?
When you love someone, you like others to know. You like for them to see the two of you together and see how you get along. I guess that would probably be the best way to describe it.