let the lord guide you and the holy spirit teach and comfort you,you are God's child and he loves us just as we should love him,God will give the increase when you need more than you have,God knows your heart and desires,though you may ask him for a desire many times you need not ask for one when doing right for God he blesses in each step you take for him and he will never forsake you,and worry not for those whom seek your death,for "vengeance is mine saith the lord" we need not trouble are selves with any blood shed,only "Truth",we all lose our lives eventually but whosoever loses their life for God shall keep it,think not on vain things for great is the gift of heaven,it cannot be compared unto any object,city,palace,kingdom,or church of this world,only of whom shall be allowed unto it can be explained,blessed are they who mourn for they will be comforted,Jesus died for our sins so that we would not perish but have the promise of everlasting life,120 years biblically is the life span all can live to so think not on age you can still do right for God when the young are boastful and overconfident when you are waxen old,May God bless you!